What are we doing anyway?? Part 1 (personal)

Man oh man, these are intense, life changing times we are in.  From September 23rd thru October 22nd each and everyone one on earth stood at the edge of life's oceans which now came to a Y.  Everyone has come to a choice point, and for some, many choice points in their lives.  If by October 22 you didn't come to clear choices in your life, then your core choices simply placed you in the ocean you aliged with...

Clinging to the old world, old energy...  judgement, separation,  etc.  This is really an easy, familiar ocean to swim in.  From the surface it looks calm, familiar, easy to swim.  But what humanity doesn't realize, even this ocean side is conspiring to merge with the new waters... the new loving fields of earths highest vibrations.  There are a lot of people swimming here, so the waters look so inviting due to the sheer volume of bodies within it.  The waters here, incredibly murky.  You cannot see below the surface.  You cannot see the riptides and because arrogance is so dominant here, most people could care less about riptides.  The rip tides in this ocean are going to be intense thru 2012!

And then there is the New Ocean, new only because we have very little memory of swimming here.  It is aligned with pure love and unity.    From the deepest part of the ocean you can see every pebble of sand at the oceans bottom and you love them just for being.  Not to many people here... it is unfamiliar if not foreign territory.  You cannot bring any peace of your old baggage here.

October 22nd was an universal reboot of all energies.

Whether you were conscious about it or not, your choices were sealed in this version of life in relationship to the actions of your life.  Actions (or even inaction) speaks louder than words.

So very much like a computer that has been running amuck for eons, all the energy was withdrawn for a day (maybe two lol)  so that the entire universe can now stand on new, fresh ground of Life.

By this point in time, many people were already swimming in one ocean or the other.  Many had those last minute moments to simply let go of the last vestiges of their old energy... of the luggage we hold near and dear to our game of life.
One day last week, thru my facebook page, came a question from my fingertips (spirit talks, I type lol):
If you knew you could have it all, would you be willing to let it all go ...first?

Sometimes, it is the greatest Light in your life, that offers you the greatest test in your life too.  I know, spirit doesn't like the word test (since there is no pass or fail, just ongoing lessons) lets change that to .... challange.

On October 22nd, about 4 hours after I heard spirit say that the entire universe was rebooting... and yeah I was plopped straight into the void the next moment... came my challange.  My greatest test to date... and the reverberation of that pesky pesky question... would you let it all go first?

My son and his girlfriend play in the deep murky end of the ocean, tangled up in seaweed that just keeps them stuck in what they think they knew.  Goodness knows I can honor that so much... lived close to 40 years there.  But then came the ultimatum... if I don't play by their rules, their conditions, their wants, I cannot see my (just under two year old) grandson.

Really?  God this game sucks!!  This is not the first time it sucked... it's just the biggest suckiest part to date! (grin)

It is easy to give  up what doesn't serve your highest good... but in this game of illusion... would you be willing to let go of what Lightens you heart like nothing else in this created reality?

Shit... yes... dammit.

Hey, no one ever said we had to be graceful in our choices.  We are wearing the human suit and I have no problem stomping my feet to shake off the hurt.

I did look forward to the 23rd... the power node.  Maybe when I wake up, my heart won't be bleeding any more... yeah right!  I begged the ujiverse to help me know the right and best thing to do for all.  The very first thing I had seen in my day was this posting on facebook:

Well, just shit!  (smile)

So now, not only was I bleeding... flipping more rescheduling!  There was not the first trace of universal energy that I could see.  I had no clue if it was just from my own mourning, or still a part of the reboot...

But something new started to push its awareness thru my heart.  I think it was an elephant.  A feeling so big... so full and alive and  moving from the core of my heart and trying to birth itself outward.   Weird... but good... but I also knew, the tears I refused to cry (cuz I was still not a willing participant in this letting go of it all thing..) which  kept that elephant stuck in my heart.

And then I woke up on the 24th... still have this elephant trying to release itself out of my heart, my refusal to let my tears flow keeping it stuck in the birth canal (smile)... and I went to a place I have grown from, fallen in love with... lightworkers,org and seen a posting from a man who was going thru his bodies own releasing... and, in the safery of that forums loving arms... I shared what has been happening to me.  Which, I will simply copy into here as well:

I would like to share my own experience... on the 21st I was taking a realitively short walk to the post office... which happens to be on 33rd St. and artic (how interesting that alone is)... which is 5 blocks up (I am on 28th) and 3 blocks over to get to. I wasn't even into the first block of walking and ohhh my god did the front of my calves hurt... not the back at all, just the front. Now in my "massages" the calves represent the foundation in which you built and live your life upon. I hurt from the knee all the way down... and the more I walked the top of both feet chimed in with pain... (feet, support and balance within your life). It felt like there was a force trying to hold me back... and the more I pushed forward the more weighted down my feet felt, to the point I was having a hard time walking a straight line.


By the time I got to the block the post office was on, I couldn't even lift my foot high enough to get up on the 1 inch curb and I stubbed my toe and went down like a load of bricks. Busted both of my knees wide open. (Knees are all about flexibility.)


Strangely enough... when I got up, the force against my calves and on top of my feet, released itself. It was gone as if it didn't exist. For as badly as I damaged my knees... they didn't really hurt too much. Of course... I had to ponder it all.


What in the foundation of my life is working against me.. trying to stop my walk forward. Is there somewhere in my life I am not being flexible enough..?


By morning my right knee (emotional side) swelled up like a balloon with just a minor brush furn on the knee itself. The left side (physical life) was tore up.. skin hanging and actually bleeding.


I took an early morning bath meditation... scouring my own motivations, desires, egoic agenda... ever nook and cranny I could look within myself to see if there was an ounce me that was not in integrity and love. I couldn't find a thing... so I just made a statement that I release all energy from my field that does not serve the higher good of all.


Other than getting the understanding of the 11:11:11 and the kitchen of my dream will be illuminated and ready for use... I had no further insight into my now stiff knees and events of the day before.
Just before my morning reading I heard that the entire universe was on a reboot... this being the 22nd and given all the readings of the week.... I got that. Dammit... into the odd void I went. Odd because I am never disconnected from mySelf ever... just the entire grid of connection that I read from! Yippie... more rescheduling!


And then... later in the afternoon... sheez, the only thing in all this universe that can drop me to my knees (except maybe low curbs lol)... my son told me if I do not play in their chaos, on their terms and conditions, I cannot see my grandson at all.


Just a few days before I heard (and posted on my facebook) this question from spirit (never in a million years thinking it was a question directly towards me lol):


If you knew that in order to have it all... you must first give it all up... would you?
With a hole still weeping in my heart... my only reply is...
yes!


...and in that moment.... I knew.  I knew the fullness of it all and I cried a river in that enlightening, wonderful moment.

I even felt the elephant move from the core of my heart and embed in every ounce of my energy body.  Free.

Altho I did spend the rest of my reading appointments rescheduling.... dammit...(smile)... there was a greater reason than me for it (smile).

I started to be able to see what is really happening on our grid.  Ohhhh my freaking goodness!  The day unfolded with understandings.... the mangnitude of which is going to be in its very own blog... part 2 will be posted shortly.

To be continued....

(((((HUGZ))))) of pure excitement for what is unfolding as we breathe!!
Lisa Gawlas
www.mysoulcenter.com/energy_readings.html

The Earth is Preparing Us for Her Full Activation

October sure has started and continues to unfold with some major zingers!  For me personally, it is like feeling and seeing a heightened extraction of the energy fields that we live and breathe within.  I have already been in the void twice this month and we are only a week in.  But even the void isn't like the usual void for me.  It is like being taken off-line from everyone else so I can feel deep within myself.  And even that, really is more of a global feeling than a personal feeling (within).... and it is BIG!

In my own personal space October feels very gel like... fluid, but thick.  As I started to do my connections in October I noticed a whole new energy (new to my vision) encompassing a good many people I am reading for (but again, not all.)  The energy reminds me of the deep waters of the ocean... deep deep blues and silvery grey in color.  It is fluid and thick.  For some, it is pooling around the feet in a circulrar motion.  In others it has become an intense part of their core energy, and yet in another, a funnel-like encasing of energy.  It wasn't until this morning, as I sit to write this blog, did I really "get" what I have been seeing.

It is the new vibrancy of the earth energy.  Water itself has always been an amplifier of energy, and in my massage sessions I would purposely use earth energy for two reasons:  To re-hydrate and nourish a client who has done a tremendous amount of releasing their issues on my table or, to help balance and/or enliven kundalini energy.  Thru a reading I had done yesterday I got to see something even more exiting with this new gel-like earth energy.  It was serving to release the intense codes (what I called spiritual trinkets) that has been downloaded in the last month or so via the upper chakra's.

I want to be perfectly clear here too, in all that I am understanding and seeing and sharing YOU have the responsibility to integrate and use all this new energy.  Going deep within yourself and breathing it into your cells, activating this higher field of energy and USING it in your world of creation.  Until you actually do something, it simply sits there as a beautiful potential that has gone un-noticed.  If any of this (that I share outwards) scares or worries you... get out of your head, your reading from the wrong place (smile)!

I do want to go a bit deeper into being able to see this water energy opening the codes within.  It was very much like watching someone who took a medicine capsule and as he purposely went into meditation (and this was a man I read for, and he is a daily meditator) I saw this deep intense energy that was surrounding him move into his core energy and melt the outer coating of these codes (to me they look like trinkets, geometric perhaps in shape) and merged with his spinal fluid to enhance what he has already integrated, and to release new energies and abilities within him for use in his outer world of creation.

With it I got a full new understanding of the various shades of colors that have been presenting themselves.  The pastel colors represent the new energies, new insights and abilities that are present for you, but you have not integrated them yet.  With the man mentioned above, his colors were radiant and vibrant and as soon as I questioned the pastel vs this vibrancy I got the full understanding of what I just explained.  YOU MUST plug in all this new energy into YOU and USE it!  But don't think about it (smile.)  Trust yourself, your heart knows more than you can even imagine (about where you are going and how you are going to get there!)  I am sharing your wisdom with others as I am capable thru our connections.

Something really new came thru this same reading as I watched this man use the crystalline energies he had already in his work-space (when I say use, I mean meditate with, extract and integrate) I watched his entire near future (thru Dec. of this year) take on form.  Ascending a very sturdy staircase as his own vibrancy changed and enhanced.  A new and very (internally) natural skill-set came to the fore on what felt like the other side of 11/11... a vibrational facilitator (which was wonderful for me, now I get to understand, thru his energy, what the heck it is I am even doing).

Can I just say... I had seen him simply moving forward, as he came to that (now familiar place within the readings) Dec. black energy... all of a sudden I had seen him take his hands and rip thru the blackness and this brilliant bright while fully energetic energy was radiating from where he ripped (the fabric of time).  I seen it, God knows I felt it... what I am still struggling with is understanding it.  Both the how and the what.   Perhaps it is here, in this space of black (complete unknown) that I feel something BIG is heading our way... but even in that, today, is not for sure either.

I also read for a lady yesterday (the above was written the day before, I am adding this part on a different day), I also seen the ascending staircase in her reading as well.  It looked very much like that vibrant internet image of the stairway to heaven.  Now with her, I had seen her transversing the timeline of 2011 into 2012 later this month (Oct.).... how I have no idea, she just put her foot up (as if she was effortlessly climbing a 6 foot high step) and stepped into the higher frequency of 2012.  (Of course, I told her it was "take a friend to 2012" month so she would just bring me with her...smile.)

The last visual/bit of information that came thru with her was her standing at the timeline of the end of (this) November... she was in a flowing white gown, and the winds of change were blowing in from Dec. towards her at the end of Nov and she stood stead fast with her golden staff in hand.  There was a lot of subtle information that came thru that helped me understand how she is going to go from this present moment to that fully empowered image.  That information is for tomorrows blog!

I will close this sharing with:

Be with yourSelf, purposely, intimately, breathe in, feel, then breathe out the new vibrant colors of your life!  You must be an active participant in your own activation.  Watch the magic of life unfold at your feet!

You are all so flipping amazing, my mere words in no way do you justice.  From the depths of my heart and the vastness of my soul, thank you for allowing me the pure privilege of this ongoing connection!

Lisa Gawlas
www.mysoulcenter.com/energy_readings.html

The Love and Protection of the Earth within our Energy System with the coming Shift

A man graced my massage table a few days ago, that gave me (us) insight and understanding I never even considered before.  That is, how much earth herself is giving back to us according to what we have given out.  Let me explain (smile).

When I got to this man's feet, another place I do deep reading from (I am working on doing this in phone readings, gotta get me a rubber-like doll as a surrogate, anyone have one??)... there was this purposeful flow of red energy going up into his right (emotional / spiritual side) foot and calf.    I had to ask the energy, what on earth are you all about.  Little did I ever expect mother earth herself to tell me.  Never before did she make her self audible in any reading I have ever done (outside of my own personal meditations).  Obviously this was important.

The first thing was this feeling of integrity from this man.  That his heart center (which is where I was on his foot) was impeccable.  This flow of energy was the mans own highly charged integrity field flowing from his "store house" within the earth.  Which created many more questions for me. 

The love and appreciation that came from Mother Earth was soothing like a mothers love should be.  I was drenched in this mans goodness and back flow of energy that truly was his.  As I started to do the massage on his calf... this is when mother earth became audible.  She had told him that this energy is flowing into him as a protection field.  No harm will come of him "as things become chaotic."  Yeah more questions from me, left totally unanswered here. 

I could see this energy enriching his already beautiful energy field.  There was equally an extra layer of glowing white protection building itself into his field on his left (physical life) calf area.  Mother earth continued to talk about the value of his integrity and how much she appreciated it.  Especially in relationship to his chosen field of work.

I had to ask him what he did for work... I figured it had to be something huge that created this energy field.  A doctor perhaps, maybe even a lawyer?  Nope.  He is an insurance adjuster.  Talk about being stunned!!  And what our precious mother shared with me in understanding...

He has no bias on either side.  He does his best, with the highest integrity to do what is right regardless of who he works for.  That is to say, no claimant can take advantage of the insurance company, and no insurance company can withhold on a claiment.  He truly works for the higher good of all.  I was humbled.  What it must take within to have such a balanced desire.  How incredibly grateful our earth is for what, no... for HOW he does what he does.

So now that I took the long way (smile) to get to the point of this sharing.  Every single thing we do in life... holds energy.  This energy is stored within the earth herself.  She does not hold negative energy, that comes zooming back to us once we put it out.  This is our (for lack of a better word) good energy. 

Integrity means you do something without gain for yourself.  You do it because it is the right thing to do for the greater good of all.  This energy that you put out has super high value, especially in these intensely changing times. 

So what is happening, in part, with all the releasing mama is doing with the earthquakes, volcanoes, etc. is opening wide our storehouse of energy to return to its source (us) for enhanced protection during this "shift".  She gave me an example (for him, he came to me for a massage and detox and got more than he bargained for lol) that you have seen when a tornado has come into town to clear out the old energy, and it seems every house in the neighborhood got torn down expect one.  Well that one has this enhanced energy field that is truly their own energy coming back to protect them. 

She also showed me that these energy fields, communicate with each other.  The energy of the tornado recognizes the energy of the protected person/people and this field is created between the two to "do no harm."

This is a lifetime collection.  Every hug you have given just because you could, every dollar you gave to a needy person without filing it on your taxes at the end of the year... every good, helpful thing you have ever done... just because you could, is now returning to you in mammoth degrees.  Not only for protection from the coming storm... but to support you as you, with the deepest of integrity, rebuild this world as it is needed.

Keep this little phrase in mind: "You are as protected as the protection you have shared with others." 

I also want to note here several things.  Mostly this week is getting really busy for me as I prepare to leave New Mexico for Virginia, so I am not sure how many sharings I am going to have time for. 

Altho the information was purposely kept away from me (I only get to know so much... like spirit says, we are on a "need to know" basis lol) there was something so significant with relationship to the end of the first week in August.  Mother earth talked about the Chaos and I could connect to the when(ish) but not the what. 

On the drive into work that day, I had just done the blog on the sacral-plexus and I was getting this massive download of information about protection as well as the shift. 

Archangel Michael had told me several weeks ago that I must be with my family (in Virgina) when the shift happens.  I was slightly puzzled because I assumed (don't ever do that lol) that the "shift" was as much as a process as ascension.  Happening a little bit at a time.  Seems like there is much more to it than what I ever cared to ask about.  So I got to see on my profound drive to work this scenario happening:

There are many new energy grids that have emerged into our space of created matter.  Like within the human body, that means the old grids need to go.  I could so clearly see the grid of fear bulging about 3 inches from the ground.  It was as black as black can get and obviously over filled from the shear amount of people feeding into it as well as off of it.

It is about to explode.  I feel it like an old star that goes super nova.  Only here it is, in our place of created reality, 3 small inches from the ground level.  We will all feel it.  We will all be here for whatever is going to play out as it goes nova.  This is why earth has been busy making sure we have our deserved protection around us. 

I did try and see how that will play out... spirit is really good at making sure I don't see more than we need to know. 

For me, this potential fills me with excitement.  It will be so wonderful to have that layer of fear released once and for all.  Trust me, your spiritual team is on over time making sure all is in place within your energy stream.  I have seen this too and now understand it more fully!

Love, like it is the only thing that matters, because at the end of the day... it is the ONLY thing that matters.

With deep humbleness and tremendous excitement,

Lisa Gawlas
www.mysoulcenter.com/energy_readings.html