I crossed into the State line of New Mexico at 7:57 (central time) on Sunday July 18th. By that time I was knee deep into car fatigue and although I tried to put my “sensors” on to see if I could feel the difference of being in New Mexico, I couldn’t. All I wanted was a motel!
I left my low budget motel in Carlsbad, NM just after 11am on the 19th and headed to Albuquerque. Once I left the city limits and arrived on the desolate road of 285, it was then I could see and feel it. I could see an energy grid that was only about 5’ above the ground and spread out as far as I can see.
This energy field was different than anything I had ever seen before. It was translucent in visual, and tightly woven, very much like a beautiful spider web of energy. As I really connected to the energy of it, I could feel my heart thumping as if I just met the man of my dreams (the only analogy I can think of right now…lol).
I tried to understand the webs position of about 5’ above the ground instead of on the ground or up near the sky… right now, I have no idea!
I have seen the energy fields of other places, especially Virginia, and the threads were golden and very connected to the ground and rose up where needed from there. This was distinctly different, as it didn’t seem to connect to anything but itself. Like an amazing layer of energy hovering about the earth. I got the distict impression this was the Unified Energy Field…. But really, I have no idea what that means to us (humans)… yet.
As I was traveling down the road I had seen a sign for Roswell, I got excited! I thought, since I didn’t have the money to visit the Carlsbad Caverns, I will stop in Roswell to feel what I can feel.
The moment I entered the City of Roswell, I realized I didn’t have to stop at all. I had seemed to connect with the energetic impression of the big mystery of this place from my car.
The first thing I had seen was a beautiful flying disc, not like any airplane I had ever seen. It was close to the ground and a shimmering silver like I had never seen either. There was an aliveness to it all. Then suddenly a second disc of the same makeup came obviously way to close to the one already there and there was an impact. I could see the blast of massive light as they collided with each other.
The next thing I had seen were people on the ground witnessing this event. Some incredibly scared, some incredibly excited. What is really interesting as I now “remember” back to these two seens, was there was a distinctly different feel (energetically) to seeing the disc’s in the air, to seeing the people on the ground… I now wonder if this lattice of energy that I had seen on my road trip, has anything to do with it all (I will find out one day.)
The next thing I had witnessed was bits and pieces of these crafts all over the ground, and with ET’s equally laying scattered on the ground. They were not humanoid at all. I have very little knowledge of ET’s at all… but the first thing I thought of, they look like grays… but yet, even as I thought that, something inside told me they were not. Other than Grays and Plieadians, I have no clue about what or who else is out there.
I noticed that some of the bodies were dead; some were injured and not dead.
The next image I had was of what I assume were military personnel scouring the ground and cleaning up all the debris and taking the ET’s somewhere… I felt like I was deep underground somewhere in this area of Roswell.
I felt like 2 or three of these ET’s lived. Who ever were taking care of them made sure they did all they could to restore life to these amazing survivors.
Then the next thing I had seen was the movement of these ET’s. All of them. We kept the dead ones to study I suppose. It was a feeling like too many people witnessed this event and the brave curious people were now looking for debris and most importantly, the ET’s. So they were moved to another underground facility in either Nevada or Arizona.
The next thing I became aware of, more as if someone was telling me a story as opposed to actually seeing it unfold… was that the ET’s that survived was sharing technology information with its captors in exchange for the ability to take humans back with them to study. An agreement was made by our government to allow what we refer to as “abductions”, but really, they were freely exchanged with agreement from our military.
I also got a feel of the lack of emotional systems of these ET’s. They reminded me very much of “Spock” from Star Trek. They seemed to be emotionally void but very very intelligent. Their brains were at least 2 to 3 times the size of ours and they used it to their fullest.
Then I got a flash forward to a meditation I had way back in 2004 where I had seen a very sick ET in a facility in either AZ or NV and what we did was extract the virus this ET had to use for germ warfare. In this meditation I knew there was no cure for the virus since it was not of our world, and of course, in any meditation it is hard to understand the timeline (past, present or future). I knew without a doubt as the information of Roswell flowed into my awareness was that is how the Aides virus started. We did what we thought were controlled experiments that obviously were not very controlled.
As I left the area of Roswell, so did the information that was coming so easily and quickly. I once again returned to looking at the energy field that was 5’ above the ground with my heart jumping up and down with excitement.
I have spent this last week sleeping all day and all night long. Once I get my brains back… I will post again!!
With love and complete awe!
Lisa
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
I am 4 hours away from Albuquerque!!! ...Part 4
My Journey part 4
I awoke grateful that I had the extra money for this detour in my journey towards NM. I figured I had $300 to put towards a month rent somewhere and I pulled up the Albuquerque craigslist and started going thru roommates wanted ads and waited until it was 9am in NM (they are on mountain time and I was still on central time). Nothing was working out. People wanted to show me the room, but I was still 4 hours away and had no clue where anything was. I tried to put a call into my editor, who lives in Albuquerque, but something was wrong with her phone number, each time I dialed it I received a fast busy signal. Since we emailed all the time, I had no need for her cell phone and only had her home phone number.
Nervous started to set in. I didn’t even have her address with me so just driving to her house was out of the question since I had no idea where her house was. Now I had to come up with a whole new plan.
I thought, well maybe I should just check the Sante Fe area, since ultimately, that is where I want to end up. Room rents were much higher in that area, but I found two I was interested in. One was a retreat place that was renting rooms, another was a female my age with a son 18… ahhhh so much better than the many 20 year olds looking for 20 year olds in Albuquerque. Neither answered my call/email immediately.
I started deep breathing to get out of the rising nervousness that was moving up into my mind.
Then I got a facebook response from my oldest daughter who lives in Austin, TX reminding me she is getting her new apartment that very day and I should come stay with her.
What is funny, Austin was in my original itinerary and I dropped it from my travels when she told me she had to beg her boyfriend (who she lived with) for me to stay there. My heart was sad that I wasn’t going to spend time with her, after all she had come to VA twice to visit us over the last 3 years, now that I am going to be so close to Austin, I really wanted to spend time in her life, but I don’t want to feel like I am intruding on someone’s personal space either. I dropped Austin from my itinerary and changed my arrival date for NM.
Now the universe rearranged everyone’s life to make sure me and Michelle would spend some much needed time together. 2 weeks before I was to hit the road, Michelle sent me a text message that her and her boyfriend broke up (can I say shocked, they were wonderful together, and I really loved him in her life, even if he didn’t want me staying at his house.) She was living on a friends couch as she tried to find an apt for herself.
Keep in mind, Michelle is in-between jobs too. She works for a catering company that caters to magnet schools and she doesn’t return to work until school goes back. Her (ex)boyfriend was kind enough to give her the money to get an apartment so she had somewhere to live. She got the keys to her new apartment the day after my journey changed. I thought… why not! I so wanted to see her and now we can do it in joy and no weird feelings of being there!
I literally made a left turn at Amarillo Texas and started the 10 hour drive to Austin. I got a hotel after about 6 hours on the road, since she wouldn’t have the keys until the next day. I was so grateful and thanked the universe again… in awe at all that had to be arranged in order for her and I to spend time together.
As I drove towards Austin, I thought about my security deposit and Diana (my no longer house-mate). I had originally told her that I would come by the next day to pick up my deposit, I knew by her saying “if I am here I will cut you a check” that getting it back was not going to be easy. As the ego part of me went off on a tangent of filing court papers to get it back in Albuquerque, my spirit interrupted my tangent to remind me how much she is loved in spirit too. I could feel myself loving her so much and being reminded that I made it to this point in my journey because of the support of so many people. That she lives in a space within herself that no one supports her and that I should give her the security deposit as my way of supporting her. After all, she gave me (and my daughter) a most wonderful gift in simply being herself. With joy in my heart I wrote her an email and told her to keep the money I had given her and get a tent and air mattress for her journey (which she was supposed to use mine to camp her way to NJ.) I sent her love and thanx in my email and she removed me from her friends on facebook, which was perfect.
Before I left the hotel, I did send my editor, Dana, an email and told her what was happening. Sadly I didn’t update her as I traveled to Austin. She was away visiting her family so I left her a nervous wreck (I am so sorry Dana) and the moment she woke up she called me, insisting I come to her house and stay until I get a place of my own. I let her know I was in the midst of shifting to Austin, and for a fleeting moment, I thought about staying in Austin. My daughter did tell me it was the metaphysical capital of the world…
As I arrived in Austin, I knew that was not a true statement. The energy is so congested and thick. In feeling this energy and wondering why people would feel this is such a spiritually open place… because even my friend Rhonda claimed it as so.
I suddenly had information come pouring into my awareness/understanding. Let me see if I can put this understanding into English (smile).
A place like Virginia is a place where awakening takes place. The energetic are so heavy and dense that it really requires a conscious effort to climb out of the dark and seek the light. A place like Austin, people have understood there is a place of light, but they think it is outside of themselves somewhere (which is a natural progression of the journey). People will hold classes, sell trinkets like crystals and candles, all the things that allows the spiritual seeker to know there is more, but continues to seek outside of themselves.
So the true spiritual energy I had hoped to feel upon entering Austin, did not exist. It is simply a “lighter” part of the collective consciousness.
Then there are places that the spiritual energy of awareness, of true enlightenment resides in all it touches… NM is becoming that place on earth. Vermont is also a place like that.
I knew in my heart, I would be making the shift to New Mexico.
As I was with my daughter, I heard back from both of the people I contacted in the Sante Fe area. The lady with the 18 year old son was my favorite and I wanted to go there. The rent was reasonable, but now that I had to fill my tank 3 times and choose to get my daughter some immediate necessities (like food) for her/us, I no longer had the money to get a room. Not to mention I really didn’t have a way to get a “good faith: deposit to anyone from my current position. I know the lady liked me and was interested in allowing me to be her roommate (I give my website address as a way to get to know me… and to see the side of me some people may not like.) I told her to give me a few hours and I will work out a plan and I will get back to her.
I contacted Tony and asked him if he could lend me $300 to get a room, in a heartbeat he agreed. I would have him mail out the money to her… and it will be there before I arrived.
By the time I finally got back in touch with her the next day… she had already rented the room to a co-worker, but said her ex husband had a room for rent too… and she would contact him for me. I could tell this lady really wanted to help me… and I was in awe with her kindness and concern. She did call me back to say her ex husband had already rented the room… but that she will keep her eyes open for me incase something else came up that would be good for me. I thanked her and started to come up with a new plan…
On top of all this, my car insurance was due in 4 days. My youngest daughter is on my policy and she is going thru her own job/financial changes and I knew she did not have her share of the insurance money ($220) and because of an insurance claim from sliding on black ice, my insurance company raised my own personal rate $100 a month (the exact amount they paid out for the bumper repair). I called my insurance company to see if I could delay my payment 2 weeks, but they said because I am in a renewal period that they cannot do that. I had to pay by the 15th or they would cancel my insurance. My daughters car lone is with the meanest people on earth, Casey Honda, and they would shut her car off if there is a laps in insurance… I had to pay it!
So the money Tony gave me for a place to live, went to keeping our insurance paid.
In the meantime, Dana sent me an email telling me to come stay with her, that her husband and son are really good with me coming there… and the love she sent to me in her emails made me feel so incredibly thankful she is my editor, that is an energy that will enhance my book!
She had said she was going to Denver for a week to hang with her friend and would be back on the 19th, I said I would be there on the 20th. At this point, I just want to start the next phase of my life! Being in-between here and there is a very strange place to be!
I spent over a week with my daughter that was so amazing, so healing… did I say amazing? I am so proud of the woman she has become, and it is no thanx to me nor her father, her life has been a massive challenge and yet she emerged with a wonderful attitude and loving heart. I seen the beauty of the universe in her face… in her life and I am so utterly grateful my journey made this unexpected turn.
And today (July 20th, 2010) I am typing this out in the last of my motel rooms along the way, in Carlsbad NM. I will be leaving for Albuquerque in a few hours and embark on the rest of my journey… whatever that is.
The one thing that really baffles me about this road trip, is the gas that Texas sells. In the 3000 miles it took me to get to Austin, I had been averaging 400 miles to a tank of gas (at a cost of about $25 per tank). The time I spent driving and filling up in Texas (about 800 miles) I lost 100 miles per tank. Instead of getting my 400 miles per tank I am now getting only 300. What have they done to the gas they sell??
On a last note, I am arriving financially crippled. I have $75 left in my “gas” account (and at least another fill up before I arrive, and gas is expensive here in NM, more than anywhere else on my travels) and $60 left in my cash, with only $20 left on my paypal (I used my “fun” account to pay for the motel I am staying in.) I am so grateful the money I had lasted all this way, all this time and in the perfect amount to allow me to reach my destination… at least the Albuquerque part.
But I have absolute trust that the universe will rally together to cover my needs in whatever way it sees fit. I am open to receive….
The one thing I am absolutely sure of, I was always meant to spend some time with Dana, personal close time, something I would have never done had not my road twisted and turned so much!
I will continue to share my story on this blog in the days ahead. Thank you all for sharing this journey with me. Thank you to my car for being such a trooper and getting me safely to my new life!!
Namaste,
Lisa
I awoke grateful that I had the extra money for this detour in my journey towards NM. I figured I had $300 to put towards a month rent somewhere and I pulled up the Albuquerque craigslist and started going thru roommates wanted ads and waited until it was 9am in NM (they are on mountain time and I was still on central time). Nothing was working out. People wanted to show me the room, but I was still 4 hours away and had no clue where anything was. I tried to put a call into my editor, who lives in Albuquerque, but something was wrong with her phone number, each time I dialed it I received a fast busy signal. Since we emailed all the time, I had no need for her cell phone and only had her home phone number.
Nervous started to set in. I didn’t even have her address with me so just driving to her house was out of the question since I had no idea where her house was. Now I had to come up with a whole new plan.
I thought, well maybe I should just check the Sante Fe area, since ultimately, that is where I want to end up. Room rents were much higher in that area, but I found two I was interested in. One was a retreat place that was renting rooms, another was a female my age with a son 18… ahhhh so much better than the many 20 year olds looking for 20 year olds in Albuquerque. Neither answered my call/email immediately.
I started deep breathing to get out of the rising nervousness that was moving up into my mind.
Then I got a facebook response from my oldest daughter who lives in Austin, TX reminding me she is getting her new apartment that very day and I should come stay with her.
What is funny, Austin was in my original itinerary and I dropped it from my travels when she told me she had to beg her boyfriend (who she lived with) for me to stay there. My heart was sad that I wasn’t going to spend time with her, after all she had come to VA twice to visit us over the last 3 years, now that I am going to be so close to Austin, I really wanted to spend time in her life, but I don’t want to feel like I am intruding on someone’s personal space either. I dropped Austin from my itinerary and changed my arrival date for NM.
Now the universe rearranged everyone’s life to make sure me and Michelle would spend some much needed time together. 2 weeks before I was to hit the road, Michelle sent me a text message that her and her boyfriend broke up (can I say shocked, they were wonderful together, and I really loved him in her life, even if he didn’t want me staying at his house.) She was living on a friends couch as she tried to find an apt for herself.
Keep in mind, Michelle is in-between jobs too. She works for a catering company that caters to magnet schools and she doesn’t return to work until school goes back. Her (ex)boyfriend was kind enough to give her the money to get an apartment so she had somewhere to live. She got the keys to her new apartment the day after my journey changed. I thought… why not! I so wanted to see her and now we can do it in joy and no weird feelings of being there!
I literally made a left turn at Amarillo Texas and started the 10 hour drive to Austin. I got a hotel after about 6 hours on the road, since she wouldn’t have the keys until the next day. I was so grateful and thanked the universe again… in awe at all that had to be arranged in order for her and I to spend time together.
As I drove towards Austin, I thought about my security deposit and Diana (my no longer house-mate). I had originally told her that I would come by the next day to pick up my deposit, I knew by her saying “if I am here I will cut you a check” that getting it back was not going to be easy. As the ego part of me went off on a tangent of filing court papers to get it back in Albuquerque, my spirit interrupted my tangent to remind me how much she is loved in spirit too. I could feel myself loving her so much and being reminded that I made it to this point in my journey because of the support of so many people. That she lives in a space within herself that no one supports her and that I should give her the security deposit as my way of supporting her. After all, she gave me (and my daughter) a most wonderful gift in simply being herself. With joy in my heart I wrote her an email and told her to keep the money I had given her and get a tent and air mattress for her journey (which she was supposed to use mine to camp her way to NJ.) I sent her love and thanx in my email and she removed me from her friends on facebook, which was perfect.
Before I left the hotel, I did send my editor, Dana, an email and told her what was happening. Sadly I didn’t update her as I traveled to Austin. She was away visiting her family so I left her a nervous wreck (I am so sorry Dana) and the moment she woke up she called me, insisting I come to her house and stay until I get a place of my own. I let her know I was in the midst of shifting to Austin, and for a fleeting moment, I thought about staying in Austin. My daughter did tell me it was the metaphysical capital of the world…
As I arrived in Austin, I knew that was not a true statement. The energy is so congested and thick. In feeling this energy and wondering why people would feel this is such a spiritually open place… because even my friend Rhonda claimed it as so.
I suddenly had information come pouring into my awareness/understanding. Let me see if I can put this understanding into English (smile).
A place like Virginia is a place where awakening takes place. The energetic are so heavy and dense that it really requires a conscious effort to climb out of the dark and seek the light. A place like Austin, people have understood there is a place of light, but they think it is outside of themselves somewhere (which is a natural progression of the journey). People will hold classes, sell trinkets like crystals and candles, all the things that allows the spiritual seeker to know there is more, but continues to seek outside of themselves.
So the true spiritual energy I had hoped to feel upon entering Austin, did not exist. It is simply a “lighter” part of the collective consciousness.
Then there are places that the spiritual energy of awareness, of true enlightenment resides in all it touches… NM is becoming that place on earth. Vermont is also a place like that.
I knew in my heart, I would be making the shift to New Mexico.
As I was with my daughter, I heard back from both of the people I contacted in the Sante Fe area. The lady with the 18 year old son was my favorite and I wanted to go there. The rent was reasonable, but now that I had to fill my tank 3 times and choose to get my daughter some immediate necessities (like food) for her/us, I no longer had the money to get a room. Not to mention I really didn’t have a way to get a “good faith: deposit to anyone from my current position. I know the lady liked me and was interested in allowing me to be her roommate (I give my website address as a way to get to know me… and to see the side of me some people may not like.) I told her to give me a few hours and I will work out a plan and I will get back to her.
I contacted Tony and asked him if he could lend me $300 to get a room, in a heartbeat he agreed. I would have him mail out the money to her… and it will be there before I arrived.
By the time I finally got back in touch with her the next day… she had already rented the room to a co-worker, but said her ex husband had a room for rent too… and she would contact him for me. I could tell this lady really wanted to help me… and I was in awe with her kindness and concern. She did call me back to say her ex husband had already rented the room… but that she will keep her eyes open for me incase something else came up that would be good for me. I thanked her and started to come up with a new plan…
On top of all this, my car insurance was due in 4 days. My youngest daughter is on my policy and she is going thru her own job/financial changes and I knew she did not have her share of the insurance money ($220) and because of an insurance claim from sliding on black ice, my insurance company raised my own personal rate $100 a month (the exact amount they paid out for the bumper repair). I called my insurance company to see if I could delay my payment 2 weeks, but they said because I am in a renewal period that they cannot do that. I had to pay by the 15th or they would cancel my insurance. My daughters car lone is with the meanest people on earth, Casey Honda, and they would shut her car off if there is a laps in insurance… I had to pay it!
So the money Tony gave me for a place to live, went to keeping our insurance paid.
In the meantime, Dana sent me an email telling me to come stay with her, that her husband and son are really good with me coming there… and the love she sent to me in her emails made me feel so incredibly thankful she is my editor, that is an energy that will enhance my book!
She had said she was going to Denver for a week to hang with her friend and would be back on the 19th, I said I would be there on the 20th. At this point, I just want to start the next phase of my life! Being in-between here and there is a very strange place to be!
I spent over a week with my daughter that was so amazing, so healing… did I say amazing? I am so proud of the woman she has become, and it is no thanx to me nor her father, her life has been a massive challenge and yet she emerged with a wonderful attitude and loving heart. I seen the beauty of the universe in her face… in her life and I am so utterly grateful my journey made this unexpected turn.
And today (July 20th, 2010) I am typing this out in the last of my motel rooms along the way, in Carlsbad NM. I will be leaving for Albuquerque in a few hours and embark on the rest of my journey… whatever that is.
The one thing that really baffles me about this road trip, is the gas that Texas sells. In the 3000 miles it took me to get to Austin, I had been averaging 400 miles to a tank of gas (at a cost of about $25 per tank). The time I spent driving and filling up in Texas (about 800 miles) I lost 100 miles per tank. Instead of getting my 400 miles per tank I am now getting only 300. What have they done to the gas they sell??
On a last note, I am arriving financially crippled. I have $75 left in my “gas” account (and at least another fill up before I arrive, and gas is expensive here in NM, more than anywhere else on my travels) and $60 left in my cash, with only $20 left on my paypal (I used my “fun” account to pay for the motel I am staying in.) I am so grateful the money I had lasted all this way, all this time and in the perfect amount to allow me to reach my destination… at least the Albuquerque part.
But I have absolute trust that the universe will rally together to cover my needs in whatever way it sees fit. I am open to receive….
The one thing I am absolutely sure of, I was always meant to spend some time with Dana, personal close time, something I would have never done had not my road twisted and turned so much!
I will continue to share my story on this blog in the days ahead. Thank you all for sharing this journey with me. Thank you to my car for being such a trooper and getting me safely to my new life!!
Namaste,
Lisa
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Part 3 of "My Journey"
My Journey continued… Part 3
So now I am 7 full days into my “shift” and I end up driving 2 hours in the wrong direction to reach Jill who lives on the boarder of Arkansas and Oklahoma. I spent a good amount of time thanking the universe for the incredible weather I had while camping, it only sprinkled once and that was when I was in NC and they were calling for severe thunderstorms, I got an all day drizzle. I was so surrounded by trees in my campsite in NC I didn’t even get wet. Funny how spirit can really get a message to you… the only two times that the rains picked up and I got wet was when I would take the laptop out to document my journey so far. After the 2nd attempt I got the message and didn’t bring the laptop out again.
I also started to give thanx to my car and the amazing gas millage I got. I had put close to 1700 miles under my butt and I was driving on my 5th fill-up. To fill my car was less than $25 each time. The way I arranged my finances, I had one debt card that was for “gas only” and I had put $400 on that account. I had my PayPal card that was for “fun” and I had $75 on that card, then I had $300 in cash for food and any tolls I would hit along the way.
By the time I arrived at Jill’s I was about $150 down on both my gas card and my cash flow. Altho, while I was at the camp ground in AR, one of my old clients purchased an email reading that went straight to my paypal account (which added $90 to it). I felt incredibly taken care of. Of course, the majority of this money that allowed me the wonderful breathing room I was now enjoying on the road came from the people who love and supported me thru The Soul Center in VA. I had organized a fire ceremony to celebrate both my leaving as well as the new moon eclipse on June 26th, the last even we would hold together for a while in the physical. So many people brought me cards and gifts that it felt more like my birthday than a lunar event!
Up to the point of this celebration, my children were very worried because all I had to bring with me was $300 total money. Most of what I worked for prior to leaving went to get my bills paid enough that July would not be financially stressful, even tho there was no way of making my $385 car payment, I knew my finance company would work with me…
At the end of the fire ceremony I looked into all the cards that were filled with love and money and I was shocked to count up to $870 (including my money to start with). I now had plenty of breathing room and my children felt very comforted and thankful!
Jill had asked prior to me leaving VA if I could offer her weekly “energy circle” something. Because they meet at 6pm, readings were out. I rise and set with the sun, besides with this massive transition I am going thru, I am not sure how my psychic skills are going to work, if at all. We planned the “Expanded Consciousness” hypnosis event and she asked for those interested to donate $25, if they had it. The event raised $170 to replenish my travel kitty and Jill insisted I take $100 for the massages I so wanted to GIVE both her and her husband (that’s for free, after all, she bed, fed and watered me for 3 days). Once I opened the lovely card she gave to me and I seen all these $20 bills inside, I really tried to give it back, but man she is a stubborn woman! So I officially recouped $270 and was so grateful I cannot even tell you.
I did realize there is a massive difference when you do such a profound hypnosis event with people who had been in my classes for 8 weeks to people who just got introduced to me and the concepts of really going back Home to spirit where we all came from. The first time I ever done this event was just a week before I left, it was also the very first “original” hypnosis script I ever wrote, and I had been doing hypnosis since 2001. The event is a very shortened version of doing a Life Between Life event (as per Michael Newton, Phd) for which I was trained, and as deep as you can take a group and move them around without the personal conversation usually had with a private session. This new group, although they had a great experience, did not come close to the experiences had by my class members.
I almost forgot that there was an email I needed to read from my soon to be housemate. I only remembered the need to read the “House Rules” because with my cash kitty now filled again, I decided I would break the 12 hour trip from AR to NM in half and get a cheap hotel for the night, so I had to email Diana and let her know I will be there a day late. 12 hours in a car is really hard on the butt and back…
I opened my gmail and downloaded the House Rules document. I never expected to get hit in the face with this really unpleasant energy as I started to read it. All I could feel that there was someone really wounded writing this, and is so incredibly not happy in her life. There were also double standards in this document (based on my previous conversations with her) and absolutely no sense of living together at all. It was more like a dictatorship and even tho all 4 adults paid equal rent and utility shares, this is her way of living. I think the part that upset me was the rule about brushing teeth. You are not allowed to run water while brushing your teeth… really? Plus, any of your roommates have the right to remind you when you are breaking the rules.
Wow, where is community, togetherness, lets be here together and work it out. No, instead there is already separation and division installed in this living arrangement. My heart started to sink. Not only was I going to be dealing with control issues, but also, there is such a poverty mindset in all of this… how do you thrive financially when the house is plagued with an energy of severe lack? I decided I would stay the month, since I was her dog sitter and house sitter while she went to NJ, and I didn’t want to just bail on her… besides I already gave her my deposit.
I got on the road and all I could think about was this new place my soul was going to dwell… blah! I was 8 hours into my car ride to NM, and I get a phone call from Diana, but I was in the midst of no-mans-land Oklahoma and I only got every other syllable she said, I told her I will call her back when I got to a hotel.
When I finally found a hotel I was 232 miles from Albuquerque and I called Diana to hear what she wanted. Well she blasted me from here to kingdom come for changing my plans so much. I explained to her why and she so fully stated that she didn’t care. I was in shock with those words. How could you not care? All she cared about was herself and she said she didn’t trust me to watch her dog! Really? Then what I had wanted to say all day long came flying out of my mouth… I so don’t want to live with you at all. I am not coming. I hung up the phone and felt like 100 pounds just got released from my shoulders. Even tho I had no backup plan really, except for the comfort of my editor Dana being in Albuquerque, I could care less… I would not be living in a dictatorship and my soul was in joy! I fell asleep asking the universe to help me with my new direction.
As I awoke I started to realize why I had that past life memory in the crystal mines. There is a very deep energy within me that will not live under anyones control again. One of the major reasons my military career only lasted 10 months, I refuse to take stupid orders and follow them just because someone else told me to.
To be continued…..
With joy and utmost gratitude,
Lisa
So now I am 7 full days into my “shift” and I end up driving 2 hours in the wrong direction to reach Jill who lives on the boarder of Arkansas and Oklahoma. I spent a good amount of time thanking the universe for the incredible weather I had while camping, it only sprinkled once and that was when I was in NC and they were calling for severe thunderstorms, I got an all day drizzle. I was so surrounded by trees in my campsite in NC I didn’t even get wet. Funny how spirit can really get a message to you… the only two times that the rains picked up and I got wet was when I would take the laptop out to document my journey so far. After the 2nd attempt I got the message and didn’t bring the laptop out again.
I also started to give thanx to my car and the amazing gas millage I got. I had put close to 1700 miles under my butt and I was driving on my 5th fill-up. To fill my car was less than $25 each time. The way I arranged my finances, I had one debt card that was for “gas only” and I had put $400 on that account. I had my PayPal card that was for “fun” and I had $75 on that card, then I had $300 in cash for food and any tolls I would hit along the way.
By the time I arrived at Jill’s I was about $150 down on both my gas card and my cash flow. Altho, while I was at the camp ground in AR, one of my old clients purchased an email reading that went straight to my paypal account (which added $90 to it). I felt incredibly taken care of. Of course, the majority of this money that allowed me the wonderful breathing room I was now enjoying on the road came from the people who love and supported me thru The Soul Center in VA. I had organized a fire ceremony to celebrate both my leaving as well as the new moon eclipse on June 26th, the last even we would hold together for a while in the physical. So many people brought me cards and gifts that it felt more like my birthday than a lunar event!
Up to the point of this celebration, my children were very worried because all I had to bring with me was $300 total money. Most of what I worked for prior to leaving went to get my bills paid enough that July would not be financially stressful, even tho there was no way of making my $385 car payment, I knew my finance company would work with me…
At the end of the fire ceremony I looked into all the cards that were filled with love and money and I was shocked to count up to $870 (including my money to start with). I now had plenty of breathing room and my children felt very comforted and thankful!
Jill had asked prior to me leaving VA if I could offer her weekly “energy circle” something. Because they meet at 6pm, readings were out. I rise and set with the sun, besides with this massive transition I am going thru, I am not sure how my psychic skills are going to work, if at all. We planned the “Expanded Consciousness” hypnosis event and she asked for those interested to donate $25, if they had it. The event raised $170 to replenish my travel kitty and Jill insisted I take $100 for the massages I so wanted to GIVE both her and her husband (that’s for free, after all, she bed, fed and watered me for 3 days). Once I opened the lovely card she gave to me and I seen all these $20 bills inside, I really tried to give it back, but man she is a stubborn woman! So I officially recouped $270 and was so grateful I cannot even tell you.
I did realize there is a massive difference when you do such a profound hypnosis event with people who had been in my classes for 8 weeks to people who just got introduced to me and the concepts of really going back Home to spirit where we all came from. The first time I ever done this event was just a week before I left, it was also the very first “original” hypnosis script I ever wrote, and I had been doing hypnosis since 2001. The event is a very shortened version of doing a Life Between Life event (as per Michael Newton, Phd) for which I was trained, and as deep as you can take a group and move them around without the personal conversation usually had with a private session. This new group, although they had a great experience, did not come close to the experiences had by my class members.
I almost forgot that there was an email I needed to read from my soon to be housemate. I only remembered the need to read the “House Rules” because with my cash kitty now filled again, I decided I would break the 12 hour trip from AR to NM in half and get a cheap hotel for the night, so I had to email Diana and let her know I will be there a day late. 12 hours in a car is really hard on the butt and back…
I opened my gmail and downloaded the House Rules document. I never expected to get hit in the face with this really unpleasant energy as I started to read it. All I could feel that there was someone really wounded writing this, and is so incredibly not happy in her life. There were also double standards in this document (based on my previous conversations with her) and absolutely no sense of living together at all. It was more like a dictatorship and even tho all 4 adults paid equal rent and utility shares, this is her way of living. I think the part that upset me was the rule about brushing teeth. You are not allowed to run water while brushing your teeth… really? Plus, any of your roommates have the right to remind you when you are breaking the rules.
Wow, where is community, togetherness, lets be here together and work it out. No, instead there is already separation and division installed in this living arrangement. My heart started to sink. Not only was I going to be dealing with control issues, but also, there is such a poverty mindset in all of this… how do you thrive financially when the house is plagued with an energy of severe lack? I decided I would stay the month, since I was her dog sitter and house sitter while she went to NJ, and I didn’t want to just bail on her… besides I already gave her my deposit.
I got on the road and all I could think about was this new place my soul was going to dwell… blah! I was 8 hours into my car ride to NM, and I get a phone call from Diana, but I was in the midst of no-mans-land Oklahoma and I only got every other syllable she said, I told her I will call her back when I got to a hotel.
When I finally found a hotel I was 232 miles from Albuquerque and I called Diana to hear what she wanted. Well she blasted me from here to kingdom come for changing my plans so much. I explained to her why and she so fully stated that she didn’t care. I was in shock with those words. How could you not care? All she cared about was herself and she said she didn’t trust me to watch her dog! Really? Then what I had wanted to say all day long came flying out of my mouth… I so don’t want to live with you at all. I am not coming. I hung up the phone and felt like 100 pounds just got released from my shoulders. Even tho I had no backup plan really, except for the comfort of my editor Dana being in Albuquerque, I could care less… I would not be living in a dictatorship and my soul was in joy! I fell asleep asking the universe to help me with my new direction.
As I awoke I started to realize why I had that past life memory in the crystal mines. There is a very deep energy within me that will not live under anyones control again. One of the major reasons my military career only lasted 10 months, I refuse to take stupid orders and follow them just because someone else told me to.
To be continued…..
With joy and utmost gratitude,
Lisa
Friday, July 16, 2010
My Journey Continued... Part 2
My journey continued… Part 2
I put a call into Arrowhead Mines to get some driving directions and to see how far or close I am to them. When the lady called back I was thrilled to find out that I was only 6 miles a right turn and a left turn away! Since it was already afternoon my mind said I will go out first thing tomorrow… but the Being inside of me said why wait!? Lol and I jumped into my car and headed towards the mines.
I was so surprised to see the shear amount of rock shops that lined every inch of the roadway. Most of them had signs that said “dig your own,” and I thought about pulling into one of the roadside stops…. but changed my mind until I came to one that said “Bonanza” and something took over my car and slid right into that shop. I was startled as I sat in front of this business with tables and tables of various rocks and crystals lining the front and side of his building. I thought to myself, well maybe there is a crystal that I should have here… because the current of energy that pulled me into this place was surely not alone mine!
After I looked at every table of crystals that were cheaper than anything I had ever seen before, even on eBay! I seen a man behind the glass counter and said hi and we started talking. This man, whose name is Jay was a mountain of information within himself. He knew everything about all the mines, told me what to expect, where the better places are to go, all about the massive miles of crystal that are under the earth of the very land we were standing on. He was so kind I had wished there was a way I could give him or bring him some business other than myself who didn’t plan on spending any more… and still trying to figure out why I was there in his shop. We talked for about 30 minutes then I asked him about any tools I should have as I go on my dig. He said that some places give you the tools; some rent them to you and some not at all. He showed me what he used to dig crystals when he goes, and then he just looked at me and said I could borrow them. He handed me his tools, got me a bucket, threw in some old newspapers in case I needed to wrap any of the better crystals that I found and told me where I could return his items in case I came by when he wasn’t open. The only thing that he knew about me was that my first name was Lisa. He didn’t ask for a driver’s license, or a credit card number… he just smiled and sent me on my way.
I felt so blessed and so grateful that I now had everything I needed to dig crystals and was much more knowledgeable about where to go and what to do and understood why the universe directed my car to his place, he indeed had all I needed to succeed on my crystal mission!
By the time I got back on the road and headed towards where the majority of mines were, it was already after 1pm, and I learned thru Jay that most mines close at 4pm by law. I decided to go to one of the “cheaper” ones and it only cost $10.50 a day and they actually backhoe a bunch of dirt from the mind into a field and you pick thru the dirt. I did that and let me tell you…. In an hour and a half I had way more than $10 worth of crystal points and even a few clusters as well. I was baking in the direct 85 degree sunlight that seems to amplify itself on red dirt. I was exhausted but in joy with what was in my bucket. I called it a day and went back to the campgrounds to clean my catch for the day.
I suddenly felt a kinship to fishermen, only I was fishing for crystals.
At the campsite I went down and got water from the lake and just marveled at the many various crystals that showed themselves to me to become a part of my life’s journey. I was in joy and exhausted and went to sleep early (again). The pain in my head was kind enough to stay with me all day and seemed to intensify itself as I was playing in dirt filled with crystals… I am a trooper tho, I only let the sun shut me down! Lol
The next day I went to the actual mine itself, armed with all the wonderful tools Jay had lent me. He neglected to tell me about the 3 mile road leading off the main road to the mine. Had I known it was as bad as it was, my poor little Honda would have never made the journey on it. It was pure dirt and gravel, with deep creavices where the rain had washed out most of it. It never got any better all the way up… which I kept hoping was just around the corner. On my way back down this dirt road, I kept telling my car “learn to float…. NOW” I think it heard me, I didn’t bottom out or go sideways near as much as I did on the way up.
I enjoyed my dig, it is really hard work and with the sun beating down on you, even harder. I had a new appreciation for the higher prices of quartz that others took the time and energy to dig themselves…
I spent the entire day there… from 10am until 4pm and was more exhausted than I had been in decades. When I returned to my camp with my now very heavy bucket of crystals I was too exhausted to clean them. I barely had the energy to make the 1/8th mile trek to the bathroom. Needless to say, I crashed early vowing this was my last day of crystal mining.
I woke up refreshed and energized. I started cleaning my new crystals with river water and a new toothbrush I bought for the occasion. The more I cleaned them the more my heart wanted to go out one more time to gather some more. My heart will win over my mind every time and I jumped into the car and decided to do the easier mining…. In the back hoed dirt pile.
This day seemed to be all about clusters. I was finding cluster after cluster and every now and again a few points. I had accumulated a lot of new crystals and again I stayed the whole day, from 10am until 4pm… but without actually having to dig directly into the earth and clear it away… just sifting the piles of dirt took a lot less energy. I spent the day feeling where the crystals were hiding, most of the time I was correct and would find tons in a single area I sat at. I could tell when I wasn’t in sync with the crystals because I would find nothing at all… I would take a break, go drink a bottle of water then get back into the field and waa laa I knew exactly where the crystals were.
One time during the course of this day, there was a black man mining in the fields (the only black person I had seen the entire time I was in AR) and as I was drinking my water I was watching him and suddenly I was back in the fields somewhere… and I was a black man working the fields with other black men. Whoever was instructing us was NOT NICE! Then suddenly the image changed to me (as the black man) being whipped and I could see the skin on my back open up and it was horrible! I snapped straight out of that memory and wondered why on earth was I having that experience!! Days later I would fully understand.
I took my treasures back to the camp with me and started clean each one with a toothbrush… but this time I had cleaned hundreds of crystals with my handy dandy toothbrush and they were shining and sparkling in the sunlight. I was so grateful and so in joy and then my fingers started to cramp up over and over again and I decided the rest could wait!
I actually stayed up late on this evening… by late I mean a half hour past dark lol. It was the evening of the 4th of July and I expected it to be noisy…. But wasn’t at all. In the morning I would begin to break down my camp and head to Jill’s house.
Jill was one of my very first “Email Reading / Spiritual Development clients back when I lived in Vermont. She and I had remained friends thru out the years and each of our many changes. We had never met each other in real life so I was so excited to be able to get to give her a real live hug and meet her and her family. She designs crystal jewelry and was the artist of many of the crystal jewelry and pendulums we had at the Wonder of You Life Enhancement Center.
I was happy to know she only lived 4 hours from where I was camping. I decided to spend time near the lake before I headed out in my car again…
Did I mention my GPS that my daughter gave me to get to NM is possessed by her spirit. The entire way to wherever I go it keeps telling me… turn around, make a U-turn 200 yards, go back. Even when I knew I was going in the right direction on the right road it would utter this nonsense. I told my daughter she rigged it to get me to go back. I was grateful I printed off a mapquest with every stop I was making… so I hard some really good directions and up to this point, I didn’t miss an exist, didn’t get lost at all… a miracle in my own life.
Speaking of miracles… ya know I didn’t have one bug problem at either campsite. No flies, no mosquito’s, no nothing! I assure you I gave my super de duperty thanx for that one! Not even pesky ants trying to eat my food!
When I got to a point on mapquest that instructed me to get on I-70 to head towards Jills you can imagine my dismay when it didn’t tell me north or south. Ya know I can navigate the multi-verse like nobodies business… but give me planet earth and I am so lost! I had to call it for myself, I figured it had to be south since north is back to VA… 2 hours later I finally realize it was north all along.
My 4 hour car ride turned into over 7. But spirit reminded me sometimes you have to back up in order to move forward! Well thanx for that one!
To be continued….
Love ya tons
Lisa
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Recap of the last 2 and a half weeks of my "Road Trip" Part 1
When I started this blog my intention was to update it daily as I traveled my route from Virginia to New Mexico, but that intention fell apart before it even started. I was able to write about day one on like day 4 but the rest started to blur together. Then I realized as I pulled into my Arkansas campground for 5 days, I won’t even be able to use my laptop because they told me there was electrical hook ups, but there weren’t. The campsite was nice enough to offer to move me to a site that did have electricy, but one look and feel of the view I had right on the lake, I opted out of electricity.
So what I am doing now, is simply reflecting on my time so far. Today is July 15. I have been on the road for 2 weeks and 3 days and have yet to arrive in NM. What is funny, when I first had the inspiration to move to NM I said I was going to make a month journey out of it. Of course I tried to map out a course, things changed, my source changed, then I didn’t have the money I anticipated on so the amount of time changed and the one constant about this shift from the east coast to the south west… the plans changed even while I was in the midst of them! Ahhhh that is how the universe calls you on your hand called “TRUST”.
I suppose somewhere deep inside I knew this was the big deal about this journey… heck I even named this blog a journey of trust, but I was more thinking of the trust it took to leave my children and my 5 month old grandchild, my business and all my soul friends/family behind to start a life I cannot even wrap my mind around… not even!
Funny how much of my “original” plan is now unfolding. My first plan was to just show up in NM then figure out what it is I am going to be doing and where I am going to be living… but then that very untrusting mind (ego) set in and said you can’t do that (not to mention everyone in my life was not very calm about me doing that either). OK, I put a prayer request out to find a “roommate” situation and have a place to “live” as I arrived in NM. That same day it all worked out. That very same day one of the 3 craiglists ads I replied to seemed to be perfect. Hell, she was even planning on camping from NM to NJ…. What are the chances of that! I was so comfortable about shifting into life with this lady, and I sent out my “cleaning deposit” to secure my room for my arrival “sometime in July.” This was in early June… we had talked on the phone, on facebook, via email… I was really excited.
Then while I was camping in AR she sent out a document attachment in an email called “House Rules” (none of which were talked about in any of our previous conversations. As fate would have it, I couldn’t open it up in my blackberry and she assured me they were common sense rules but wanted to make sure everyone had a copy. Having just come from living with 3 other adults… we never had to make up house rules, we really knew how to live together and allow each their “own” and live within that frame of togetherness. Before I get to the rest of this story…. Let me share my camping experiences with you.
Chimney Rock NC was as wonderful as I expected it to be. Very grounding. What I didn’t expect was it to be filled with the spirit of my youngest daughter. Of course, her and I took an unexpected camping adventure there 3 years prior, and the first time I was in this location was when Hurricane Floyd threatened the coast of NC (where I was living) with a cat 5 hurricane and I took my children to Tennesse to be safe, we turned it into an awesome vactation. On the way back to NC we seen signs for “Chimney Rock” we were all intrigued with the name and went visiting… obviously the place left a beautiful mark on my soul.
Everywhere I went there was my daughters spirit, laughing, playing, getting down and dirty with nature. I had to pull her energy out of mine, the realization of not having her so connected to my life hurt, and even the removal was like allowing myself to bleed… it hurt in ways I didn’t expect. Of course she had been an integral companion on my soul journey for 10 years and now… she is not. I was grateful I had only booked 2 nights here… the bleeding last halfway to AR.
It was a 13 hour drive to my next campground in AR, and as I arrived, I made a pledge to myself not to drive 13 hours straight again… I couldn’t even feel my ass by the time I got out of the car to set up camp!
I stayed in an area just outside of Mount Ida, AR a place that is dubbed the largest crystal mines in all the world. I could feel that statement in every ounce of my Being. It seems there was truly a method to my madness in staying in a place that first got me deeply grounded (Chimney Rock) to set myself up for 5 days in a place that would elevate every cell within my body. I slept like a little baby my first night in AR… a straight 10 hours!!
When I awoke the first day in AR I sat next to the waters edge (which was really on a small cliff looking down onto the lake) I decided to do a meditation. I wasn’t really sure what kind of meditation I was going to do, but the moment I closed my eyes and breathed in the mornings rising sun… I was taken back to my medicine wheel in Vermont. I loved that wheel, the energy, the experiences of that place so much and I was delighted it remains in the annals of time allowing me to truly be there once again 8 years later! I said my prayers of thanx as I crossed over the outer circle of my wheel and headed towards the direction of the East and asked for her guiadance upon my path of life (as I did every day while I lived on the mountainside in Vermont). Each direction held the same theme in advice, that my life is about to get very busy and to be prepared for it. That I cannot fathom where this is all taking me, but I will have the chance to touch many lives as I move forward. Each direction of the wheel showed me the potential of that season within my own life… and I was overwhelmed and humbled. I cannot even remember the exacts of it all… I just know that I am stepping onto unfamiliar ground that is going to take a deep inner trust within myself…
As I moved into the center circle of my wheel I was instantly pulled down thru the ground and to mother earth. I could see her right leg bleeding… no hemorrhaging! I knew instantly that it was the oil gusher in the Gulf that was spilling out of her right leg (emotional walk forward in life) and I intuitively reached up thru the earth and got a handful of earth energy and placed it on the geyser what was on my mother’s leg… and I could se the light go up her leg and this feelting thought that said when you put fire on oil it explodes. Yikes! That was enough to end my meditation.
The next day an oil tanker overturned and blew up… I wonder even to now, if that was the explosion I felt… because if it ends up being the gases raising up from this rupture…. It could create a tsunami. Right now, I don’t want to know.
Imagine my surprise that when this meditation was I was so exhausted I had to take a nap… for 2 hours! I woke up, putzed around and by early afternoon was so exhausted again that I went down for a 2nd nap in the same day… for another hour and a half! The last time I took 2 naps in one day I was a baby in the crib… and other than driving for 13 hours straight, I hadn’t done a darn thing to be exhausted from! I was actually awakened from my 2nd nap by my son calling me. I ignored his first call, simply because I couldn’t seem to wake up… but when he called back within minutes, I knew there had to be something going on and I found the energy to answer the call. That is when I found out my cat of 6 and a half years, Snickers got hit by a car and died.
The dam of tears I had been holding onto since before I even left VA broke wide open! I cried, no, I sobbed for hours. I cried until there was nothing left inside of me… and it was then I could hear my cat… and she talked to me in a voice that was eerily like Julie Andrews… I kept thinking of all the times I could have petted her and didn’t the guilt in me rising up to overflow… and her love, as it was in life, was unwavering and unaccusing. She understood at profound levels (God what we could learn from that animal) of what the human Lisa was going thru, and she was content to be with me in whatever fashion that meant. But she also understood that my life is about to get very busy and that a cat is not a part of my future right now so she choose to leave, and will soon reincarnate into a kitten body and be someones pet until the day I am settled into my life and can have a cat again… she will then take on another cat body to be with me.
I so deeply understood the process of living, dying and living again in ways I never could have outside of this event. She will not let me feel sad in her absence, when that feeling wells up in me, she sends me a breeze and reminds me of something wonderful to smile about. The one thing I am sure about, she will come to me as a kitten years from now…. And with that, my heart is filled with love and hope and an understanding that is so beyond my humble words right now. Thank you Snickers for being a revealer of the Light… I love you!
I was sure I would be up all night after sleeping the better part of the day away…. Not even! I went to sleep just before dark and slept for 9 more hours!
When I awoke, my head felt like someone did the Mexican tap dance all over the bottom rim of my skull all night long. There was this strange ache that outlined the entire area of the bottom of my skull. I realized it was in alignment with my Medulla Oblongata (the brain stem) and I am sure whatever energy is working here in AR is enhancing that area of my body… which of course is connected deeply to the Pineal Gland which is currently changing from carbon based to Crystalline based… I rubbed my head in order to remove some of the pain (didn’t work) gave my thanks and went down for yet another 2 hour nap!
When I finally awoke, the ache still very much in place, I said I didn’t come here to sleep… I came here to be with the crystals. I don’t care how tired I am… I am doing something other than sleep!
To be continued in another blog….. (tomorrow?)
With love, joy and unprecedented trust!
(((((HUGZ))))
Lisa
So what I am doing now, is simply reflecting on my time so far. Today is July 15. I have been on the road for 2 weeks and 3 days and have yet to arrive in NM. What is funny, when I first had the inspiration to move to NM I said I was going to make a month journey out of it. Of course I tried to map out a course, things changed, my source changed, then I didn’t have the money I anticipated on so the amount of time changed and the one constant about this shift from the east coast to the south west… the plans changed even while I was in the midst of them! Ahhhh that is how the universe calls you on your hand called “TRUST”.
I suppose somewhere deep inside I knew this was the big deal about this journey… heck I even named this blog a journey of trust, but I was more thinking of the trust it took to leave my children and my 5 month old grandchild, my business and all my soul friends/family behind to start a life I cannot even wrap my mind around… not even!
Funny how much of my “original” plan is now unfolding. My first plan was to just show up in NM then figure out what it is I am going to be doing and where I am going to be living… but then that very untrusting mind (ego) set in and said you can’t do that (not to mention everyone in my life was not very calm about me doing that either). OK, I put a prayer request out to find a “roommate” situation and have a place to “live” as I arrived in NM. That same day it all worked out. That very same day one of the 3 craiglists ads I replied to seemed to be perfect. Hell, she was even planning on camping from NM to NJ…. What are the chances of that! I was so comfortable about shifting into life with this lady, and I sent out my “cleaning deposit” to secure my room for my arrival “sometime in July.” This was in early June… we had talked on the phone, on facebook, via email… I was really excited.
Then while I was camping in AR she sent out a document attachment in an email called “House Rules” (none of which were talked about in any of our previous conversations. As fate would have it, I couldn’t open it up in my blackberry and she assured me they were common sense rules but wanted to make sure everyone had a copy. Having just come from living with 3 other adults… we never had to make up house rules, we really knew how to live together and allow each their “own” and live within that frame of togetherness. Before I get to the rest of this story…. Let me share my camping experiences with you.
Chimney Rock NC was as wonderful as I expected it to be. Very grounding. What I didn’t expect was it to be filled with the spirit of my youngest daughter. Of course, her and I took an unexpected camping adventure there 3 years prior, and the first time I was in this location was when Hurricane Floyd threatened the coast of NC (where I was living) with a cat 5 hurricane and I took my children to Tennesse to be safe, we turned it into an awesome vactation. On the way back to NC we seen signs for “Chimney Rock” we were all intrigued with the name and went visiting… obviously the place left a beautiful mark on my soul.
Everywhere I went there was my daughters spirit, laughing, playing, getting down and dirty with nature. I had to pull her energy out of mine, the realization of not having her so connected to my life hurt, and even the removal was like allowing myself to bleed… it hurt in ways I didn’t expect. Of course she had been an integral companion on my soul journey for 10 years and now… she is not. I was grateful I had only booked 2 nights here… the bleeding last halfway to AR.
It was a 13 hour drive to my next campground in AR, and as I arrived, I made a pledge to myself not to drive 13 hours straight again… I couldn’t even feel my ass by the time I got out of the car to set up camp!
I stayed in an area just outside of Mount Ida, AR a place that is dubbed the largest crystal mines in all the world. I could feel that statement in every ounce of my Being. It seems there was truly a method to my madness in staying in a place that first got me deeply grounded (Chimney Rock) to set myself up for 5 days in a place that would elevate every cell within my body. I slept like a little baby my first night in AR… a straight 10 hours!!
When I awoke the first day in AR I sat next to the waters edge (which was really on a small cliff looking down onto the lake) I decided to do a meditation. I wasn’t really sure what kind of meditation I was going to do, but the moment I closed my eyes and breathed in the mornings rising sun… I was taken back to my medicine wheel in Vermont. I loved that wheel, the energy, the experiences of that place so much and I was delighted it remains in the annals of time allowing me to truly be there once again 8 years later! I said my prayers of thanx as I crossed over the outer circle of my wheel and headed towards the direction of the East and asked for her guiadance upon my path of life (as I did every day while I lived on the mountainside in Vermont). Each direction held the same theme in advice, that my life is about to get very busy and to be prepared for it. That I cannot fathom where this is all taking me, but I will have the chance to touch many lives as I move forward. Each direction of the wheel showed me the potential of that season within my own life… and I was overwhelmed and humbled. I cannot even remember the exacts of it all… I just know that I am stepping onto unfamiliar ground that is going to take a deep inner trust within myself…
As I moved into the center circle of my wheel I was instantly pulled down thru the ground and to mother earth. I could see her right leg bleeding… no hemorrhaging! I knew instantly that it was the oil gusher in the Gulf that was spilling out of her right leg (emotional walk forward in life) and I intuitively reached up thru the earth and got a handful of earth energy and placed it on the geyser what was on my mother’s leg… and I could se the light go up her leg and this feelting thought that said when you put fire on oil it explodes. Yikes! That was enough to end my meditation.
The next day an oil tanker overturned and blew up… I wonder even to now, if that was the explosion I felt… because if it ends up being the gases raising up from this rupture…. It could create a tsunami. Right now, I don’t want to know.
Imagine my surprise that when this meditation was I was so exhausted I had to take a nap… for 2 hours! I woke up, putzed around and by early afternoon was so exhausted again that I went down for a 2nd nap in the same day… for another hour and a half! The last time I took 2 naps in one day I was a baby in the crib… and other than driving for 13 hours straight, I hadn’t done a darn thing to be exhausted from! I was actually awakened from my 2nd nap by my son calling me. I ignored his first call, simply because I couldn’t seem to wake up… but when he called back within minutes, I knew there had to be something going on and I found the energy to answer the call. That is when I found out my cat of 6 and a half years, Snickers got hit by a car and died.
The dam of tears I had been holding onto since before I even left VA broke wide open! I cried, no, I sobbed for hours. I cried until there was nothing left inside of me… and it was then I could hear my cat… and she talked to me in a voice that was eerily like Julie Andrews… I kept thinking of all the times I could have petted her and didn’t the guilt in me rising up to overflow… and her love, as it was in life, was unwavering and unaccusing. She understood at profound levels (God what we could learn from that animal) of what the human Lisa was going thru, and she was content to be with me in whatever fashion that meant. But she also understood that my life is about to get very busy and that a cat is not a part of my future right now so she choose to leave, and will soon reincarnate into a kitten body and be someones pet until the day I am settled into my life and can have a cat again… she will then take on another cat body to be with me.
I so deeply understood the process of living, dying and living again in ways I never could have outside of this event. She will not let me feel sad in her absence, when that feeling wells up in me, she sends me a breeze and reminds me of something wonderful to smile about. The one thing I am sure about, she will come to me as a kitten years from now…. And with that, my heart is filled with love and hope and an understanding that is so beyond my humble words right now. Thank you Snickers for being a revealer of the Light… I love you!
I was sure I would be up all night after sleeping the better part of the day away…. Not even! I went to sleep just before dark and slept for 9 more hours!
When I awoke, my head felt like someone did the Mexican tap dance all over the bottom rim of my skull all night long. There was this strange ache that outlined the entire area of the bottom of my skull. I realized it was in alignment with my Medulla Oblongata (the brain stem) and I am sure whatever energy is working here in AR is enhancing that area of my body… which of course is connected deeply to the Pineal Gland which is currently changing from carbon based to Crystalline based… I rubbed my head in order to remove some of the pain (didn’t work) gave my thanks and went down for yet another 2 hour nap!
When I finally awoke, the ache still very much in place, I said I didn’t come here to sleep… I came here to be with the crystals. I don’t care how tired I am… I am doing something other than sleep!
To be continued in another blog….. (tomorrow?)
With love, joy and unprecedented trust!
(((((HUGZ))))
Lisa
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
June 28th – The first day of my Journey
June 28th – The first day of my Journey
The drive of 431 miles to reach Chimney Rock, NC was much better than I expected. Granted the outside temp was average of 99 degrees all the way, but I didn’t get lost once (a miracle in my world) and I arrived 1 hour sooner than mapquest estimated I should. My daughter gave me a GPS system all the way here it kept telling me to make a U-Turn, I swear she was in the GPS system wanting me to come back home. I obviously ignored the GPS and thanked myself for being wise enough to print off a mapquest all the way to NM!
As I started to come to the end of the highway and start the cork screw journey down the mountain to Chimney Rock (yes been here several times with my kids) I actually started to wonder if I was doing the right thing in this whole relocation, camping journey. I even went as far as asking the universe to give me a sign, then I immediately felt bad for doubting and told the universe never mind, I’m good! I think the universe felt my faking it with the last statement because within 5 minutes of me putting that request out there all of a sudden lightening was bolting across a sun filled sky. In a matter of minutes, the skies opened up and a torrential downpour ensued, all the while, not a cloud in the sky, the sun shining so brightly in my eyes I couldn’t see the road.
As I turned off the highway onto the decent down the mountain on a road named Bat Cave Rd. the rain stopped (it lasted all of about 5 minutes) and the most hugest rainbow I had ever seen stretched from the horizon up into the sky… I knew that they had given me validation in that moment. I thanked them and breathed out a sigh of relief.
That was not enough for my team, they reminded me of the name of the road, and many months ago they talked about “caves” and I thought I was supposed to go do prayers in caves… little did I realize they would give me the validation I really needed on a Cave Road! I love that amazing universe that is always there for us.
As I neared the campground it seemed nature was out in full force. I was greeted by a large turtle on the side of the road with his head point straight up to the sky. Then I seen a large family of wild turkeys crossing the road, then a large turkey buzzard was feasting on something unrecognizable in the road. If that wasn’t enough, there was an opossum who I think thought about crossing the road, then changed his mind and scampered into the woods. I was in heaven.
Then came putting up a tent (something I never did all by myself before)… and with ease it went up! Next was the air mattress, when I purchase an electrical air pump I assumed you plug it in and it works…. No not even! You plug it in, wait 8 hours then it works! So the first night of camping was spent on the ground. My air mattress is a double sized (as in tall) twin, I don’t have that kind of air power in my lungs to blow it up the old fashioned way. I love the earth very much, but man she had no give. My body hurt when I woke up in the morning! First mission, blow up that air mattress!!
I laughed my butt off when the air mattress starting to increase to actual size and my tent appeared to shrink in size. The tent clearly stated it sleeps 2-3, I realized they just forgot to put small children, it really only sleeps 1 adult. The air mattress blew up to leave 6 inches of floor room and I literally slept in the dome part of my tent with feet and head touching the sides of the tent. Let me tell you, tall twin size mattresses need anchors on them because they have tremendous sway when you turn around at night. Often I wondered when I will be tossed on the front of my tent by the mattress swaying forward from me turning around.
Until I write again...
Lisa
The drive of 431 miles to reach Chimney Rock, NC was much better than I expected. Granted the outside temp was average of 99 degrees all the way, but I didn’t get lost once (a miracle in my world) and I arrived 1 hour sooner than mapquest estimated I should. My daughter gave me a GPS system all the way here it kept telling me to make a U-Turn, I swear she was in the GPS system wanting me to come back home. I obviously ignored the GPS and thanked myself for being wise enough to print off a mapquest all the way to NM!
As I started to come to the end of the highway and start the cork screw journey down the mountain to Chimney Rock (yes been here several times with my kids) I actually started to wonder if I was doing the right thing in this whole relocation, camping journey. I even went as far as asking the universe to give me a sign, then I immediately felt bad for doubting and told the universe never mind, I’m good! I think the universe felt my faking it with the last statement because within 5 minutes of me putting that request out there all of a sudden lightening was bolting across a sun filled sky. In a matter of minutes, the skies opened up and a torrential downpour ensued, all the while, not a cloud in the sky, the sun shining so brightly in my eyes I couldn’t see the road.
As I turned off the highway onto the decent down the mountain on a road named Bat Cave Rd. the rain stopped (it lasted all of about 5 minutes) and the most hugest rainbow I had ever seen stretched from the horizon up into the sky… I knew that they had given me validation in that moment. I thanked them and breathed out a sigh of relief.
That was not enough for my team, they reminded me of the name of the road, and many months ago they talked about “caves” and I thought I was supposed to go do prayers in caves… little did I realize they would give me the validation I really needed on a Cave Road! I love that amazing universe that is always there for us.
As I neared the campground it seemed nature was out in full force. I was greeted by a large turtle on the side of the road with his head point straight up to the sky. Then I seen a large family of wild turkeys crossing the road, then a large turkey buzzard was feasting on something unrecognizable in the road. If that wasn’t enough, there was an opossum who I think thought about crossing the road, then changed his mind and scampered into the woods. I was in heaven.
Then came putting up a tent (something I never did all by myself before)… and with ease it went up! Next was the air mattress, when I purchase an electrical air pump I assumed you plug it in and it works…. No not even! You plug it in, wait 8 hours then it works! So the first night of camping was spent on the ground. My air mattress is a double sized (as in tall) twin, I don’t have that kind of air power in my lungs to blow it up the old fashioned way. I love the earth very much, but man she had no give. My body hurt when I woke up in the morning! First mission, blow up that air mattress!!
I laughed my butt off when the air mattress starting to increase to actual size and my tent appeared to shrink in size. The tent clearly stated it sleeps 2-3, I realized they just forgot to put small children, it really only sleeps 1 adult. The air mattress blew up to leave 6 inches of floor room and I literally slept in the dome part of my tent with feet and head touching the sides of the tent. Let me tell you, tall twin size mattresses need anchors on them because they have tremendous sway when you turn around at night. Often I wondered when I will be tossed on the front of my tent by the mattress swaying forward from me turning around.
Until I write again...
Lisa
Sunday, June 27, 2010
My Journey begins tomorrow June 28th!
It really is amazing how fast time went by! It is also amazing to see the wonderful shifts in personal and group energy as well.
I watched as my son removed his fear of love, and reclaimed his love for his baby's mama, something I knew was within him all along. They are happy and in love and strengthening as "family". With this, my heart couldn't feel any happier, for I love them both so much and know energetically, they are stronger together than separate!
I have watched as all the beautiful people of The Soul Center reached out to each other, formed amazing supportive groups with each other and are fully supporting and uplifting each other. This dynamic energy was so apparent at last nights BBQ and nothing could make my heart happier than the feelings of support and love for everyone that was strong and apparent last evening.
I have watched as Tony openly asked to receive and embraced his role as the Guardian of Light for Hampton Roads. He has wonderful plans for The Sol Center and will expand in ways I couldn't! Please watch for his website to be launched at http://www.thesolcenterva.com/ in the days ahead.
I am watching with such motherly pride as my youngest daughter picks up the many pieces of change in her life and uses her very strong inner resources to rebuild anew her life in both a new home as well as a new job... everything she really wanted to happen, happened. Perhaps not in the way she envisioned it, but when we get scared to walk thru the doors of change, we are pushed thru... which she was! She is so strong and so resourceful and I am so proud of her, of all my children.
On Friday, my only real concern was the amount of money I would be leaving with. I had $300 to travel to New Mexico and eat for the week and a half I will be camping to New Mexico... as of this morning, I now have a very comfortable $885. I want to thank everyone for their kindness and generosity, I cannot tell you how much I appreciate your gifts of both money (and especially) love as I make one of the biggest changes of my life.
Today I will be packing up my car and spending time with my children. Tomorrow (June 28th) I will head out to Chimney Rock to spend two wonderful days in the mountains of North Carolina. On the 30th I will then make my trek to Royal Arkansas to spend 5 full days lake side (well 60 feet from the lake) as I release whats left of my old energy and recharge my batteries.
From there I am spending 2 days with one of the longest clients turned friends I have had. Jill became my client in 2003 and we have remained friends ever since, well at least via the net and phone. Now, after 7 years of knowing her, I will meet her, stay with her and share her world and friends energies.
I should arrive in Albuquerque on June 7th. From there, it is an open unknown road that my heart is excited to explore.
I will keep everyone posted as internet reception allows each day of my journey.
I love you all more than my words can express. I am as grateful each and everyone one of you is a part of my Life's story!!
As I close this blog, I am reminded of a phrase I have heard so many times before... one I can now see so clearly in my own life. If you want blessings in your life, then be the blessings to others. Bless and be Blessed!
Until I write again....
Humbly,
Lisa
I watched as my son removed his fear of love, and reclaimed his love for his baby's mama, something I knew was within him all along. They are happy and in love and strengthening as "family". With this, my heart couldn't feel any happier, for I love them both so much and know energetically, they are stronger together than separate!
I have watched as all the beautiful people of The Soul Center reached out to each other, formed amazing supportive groups with each other and are fully supporting and uplifting each other. This dynamic energy was so apparent at last nights BBQ and nothing could make my heart happier than the feelings of support and love for everyone that was strong and apparent last evening.
I have watched as Tony openly asked to receive and embraced his role as the Guardian of Light for Hampton Roads. He has wonderful plans for The Sol Center and will expand in ways I couldn't! Please watch for his website to be launched at http://www.thesolcenterva.com/ in the days ahead.
I am watching with such motherly pride as my youngest daughter picks up the many pieces of change in her life and uses her very strong inner resources to rebuild anew her life in both a new home as well as a new job... everything she really wanted to happen, happened. Perhaps not in the way she envisioned it, but when we get scared to walk thru the doors of change, we are pushed thru... which she was! She is so strong and so resourceful and I am so proud of her, of all my children.
On Friday, my only real concern was the amount of money I would be leaving with. I had $300 to travel to New Mexico and eat for the week and a half I will be camping to New Mexico... as of this morning, I now have a very comfortable $885. I want to thank everyone for their kindness and generosity, I cannot tell you how much I appreciate your gifts of both money (and especially) love as I make one of the biggest changes of my life.
Today I will be packing up my car and spending time with my children. Tomorrow (June 28th) I will head out to Chimney Rock to spend two wonderful days in the mountains of North Carolina. On the 30th I will then make my trek to Royal Arkansas to spend 5 full days lake side (well 60 feet from the lake) as I release whats left of my old energy and recharge my batteries.
From there I am spending 2 days with one of the longest clients turned friends I have had. Jill became my client in 2003 and we have remained friends ever since, well at least via the net and phone. Now, after 7 years of knowing her, I will meet her, stay with her and share her world and friends energies.
I should arrive in Albuquerque on June 7th. From there, it is an open unknown road that my heart is excited to explore.
I will keep everyone posted as internet reception allows each day of my journey.
I love you all more than my words can express. I am as grateful each and everyone one of you is a part of my Life's story!!
As I close this blog, I am reminded of a phrase I have heard so many times before... one I can now see so clearly in my own life. If you want blessings in your life, then be the blessings to others. Bless and be Blessed!
Until I write again....
Humbly,
Lisa
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
13 days before I leave VA
Hello again,
My leave date was delayed because someone stepped up and said they wanted to keep the Center open! I cannot even tell you how thrilled I am with that... with Tony Williams... with the fact that Hampton Roads will still a place to come and share and unfold in their Light Journey.
I want to be clear, I gave the Center to him. I am going to be a part of it energetically, but The Soul Center (changing its name slightly to reflect the new energy to The Sol Center) is Tonys. He is the guardian of Light here in Newport News (smile).
I had spent months asking everyone I thought would be interested in keeping it open... if they wanted it. No one stepped up to say yes.... I want to keep the light shining here. I stopped asking. I decided to close it, and in closing it, I would have sold / donated all the furnishings to where ever.
I hadn't known Tony a whole month when he called me to ask me if he can keep the Center open... my heart fluttered like a butterfly would realizing it has company along the way of its soul-o-journey! The Sol Center will expand its light as time goes on. Right now, it is open for massage 7 days a week from 9am until 9pm with 3 wonderful massage therapists on staff (well 4 if you include me until the 25th lol). Please be sure to support The Sol Center!!! It will still be located in the Mariner Building in Newport News (where I am now).
On my personal end... knowing I only have 13 days left before I leave... my heart is starting to beat really fast. I already miss my kids... I miss my grandson so much... Maybe it is my bodys way of going thru the mourning process now... so it does not interfere with my "road trip." I just hope this feeling doesn't get bigger as I leave.
On an up note, got my oil changed, tires rotated, had my car professionally cleaned inside and out, I got my tent and air mattress off layaway... that is when it hit me that I am really leaving soon! All the "mundane" to-do things, are done.
That precious little ego of mine suddenly reflected on my "savings" account set aside for my trip. In one account I have $110 and my son owes me $250 and I have two sales pending for something which is another $125... but in another account I have a negative $400 (well I will today when my car insurance hits... thank god for overdraft!!). My precious little ego wants to distract me with the mundane facts of my "apparent life" my heart dares to say... no worries, when spirit says I got you covered... I know that as a true statement.
Maybe I am just burning off some of my lingering trust issues within that precious universe that is equally me!! Some days, I think my fires need a stoking lol. Other days, I see the universal energy (that again) is me... in motion. Yeah... I will stoke my fires more and burn it all off.
It's almost funny as I sit here and am reminding of extra money just appearing in my back pocket and a quarter showing up on my bedroom floor. Funny how strong even a tempered ego can be!! I have some work to do (with the residue of my ego).... on ward and up ward!!
Anyway...
I love this life, this world.... soooooo much!
Until I write again!
((((((HUGZ))))))))
My leave date was delayed because someone stepped up and said they wanted to keep the Center open! I cannot even tell you how thrilled I am with that... with Tony Williams... with the fact that Hampton Roads will still a place to come and share and unfold in their Light Journey.
I want to be clear, I gave the Center to him. I am going to be a part of it energetically, but The Soul Center (changing its name slightly to reflect the new energy to The Sol Center) is Tonys. He is the guardian of Light here in Newport News (smile).
I had spent months asking everyone I thought would be interested in keeping it open... if they wanted it. No one stepped up to say yes.... I want to keep the light shining here. I stopped asking. I decided to close it, and in closing it, I would have sold / donated all the furnishings to where ever.
I hadn't known Tony a whole month when he called me to ask me if he can keep the Center open... my heart fluttered like a butterfly would realizing it has company along the way of its soul-o-journey! The Sol Center will expand its light as time goes on. Right now, it is open for massage 7 days a week from 9am until 9pm with 3 wonderful massage therapists on staff (well 4 if you include me until the 25th lol). Please be sure to support The Sol Center!!! It will still be located in the Mariner Building in Newport News (where I am now).
On my personal end... knowing I only have 13 days left before I leave... my heart is starting to beat really fast. I already miss my kids... I miss my grandson so much... Maybe it is my bodys way of going thru the mourning process now... so it does not interfere with my "road trip." I just hope this feeling doesn't get bigger as I leave.
On an up note, got my oil changed, tires rotated, had my car professionally cleaned inside and out, I got my tent and air mattress off layaway... that is when it hit me that I am really leaving soon! All the "mundane" to-do things, are done.
That precious little ego of mine suddenly reflected on my "savings" account set aside for my trip. In one account I have $110 and my son owes me $250 and I have two sales pending for something which is another $125... but in another account I have a negative $400 (well I will today when my car insurance hits... thank god for overdraft!!). My precious little ego wants to distract me with the mundane facts of my "apparent life" my heart dares to say... no worries, when spirit says I got you covered... I know that as a true statement.
Maybe I am just burning off some of my lingering trust issues within that precious universe that is equally me!! Some days, I think my fires need a stoking lol. Other days, I see the universal energy (that again) is me... in motion. Yeah... I will stoke my fires more and burn it all off.
It's almost funny as I sit here and am reminding of extra money just appearing in my back pocket and a quarter showing up on my bedroom floor. Funny how strong even a tempered ego can be!! I have some work to do (with the residue of my ego).... on ward and up ward!!
Anyway...
I love this life, this world.... soooooo much!
Until I write again!
((((((HUGZ))))))))
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
34 Days left, and it is all coming together....
Slowly but surely I am watching my transitional world come together with ease. I have my blackberry with WifFi, I have my camping gear, material wise, I have what is needed. I still need to raise the extra money to travel with... but that is what June is for :-)
I woke up just as Mercury Retrograde was getting ready to ease its grip on us (May 10th) feeling I should hang out in Albequerque NM until my book is completely finished and picked up... I went to craigslist (thank God for that place) and opened up the Albequerque NM (god now I have to learn how to spell that awkward name lol) site and looked under the "roommates wanted" section. I found three places I was interested in...
One never wrote back, one was looking for a girlfriend for his wife.... and then there was Diana. Well the fact her name is Diana made me feel better simply because that is my sisters name. It instantly gave me a feeling of "family".
I made sure everyone whom I responded to knew I was a very non-traditional kind of gal. I am camping my way there... I teach spiritual empowerment and do readings and gave a link to my website... get the "weird stuff" out in the open from the get go.
Diana was/is offering first month rent free for house / dog sitting. When she wrote me back, I had to laugh with the sort of surprise that can only come via spiritual confirmation.... she is actually heading to NJ and is camping her way there with her big dawg!! What are the chances of that????
We talked on the phone last evening and it felt like I knew her my whole life.
So now, I have a place to live once I arrive in NM... with someone who feels like family. I have always said, when something is meant to be... it is... and it is effortless. This transition is becoming my living example of that statement.
I am so blessed. So incredibly blessed.
Lisa
I woke up just as Mercury Retrograde was getting ready to ease its grip on us (May 10th) feeling I should hang out in Albequerque NM until my book is completely finished and picked up... I went to craigslist (thank God for that place) and opened up the Albequerque NM (god now I have to learn how to spell that awkward name lol) site and looked under the "roommates wanted" section. I found three places I was interested in...
One never wrote back, one was looking for a girlfriend for his wife.... and then there was Diana. Well the fact her name is Diana made me feel better simply because that is my sisters name. It instantly gave me a feeling of "family".
I made sure everyone whom I responded to knew I was a very non-traditional kind of gal. I am camping my way there... I teach spiritual empowerment and do readings and gave a link to my website... get the "weird stuff" out in the open from the get go.
Diana was/is offering first month rent free for house / dog sitting. When she wrote me back, I had to laugh with the sort of surprise that can only come via spiritual confirmation.... she is actually heading to NJ and is camping her way there with her big dawg!! What are the chances of that????
We talked on the phone last evening and it felt like I knew her my whole life.
So now, I have a place to live once I arrive in NM... with someone who feels like family. I have always said, when something is meant to be... it is... and it is effortless. This transition is becoming my living example of that statement.
I am so blessed. So incredibly blessed.
Lisa
Sunday, May 2, 2010
44 Days left before I leave Virginia
Things are really coming together for me, as I knew it would. When spirit is guiding you all you have to do is trust in each day.
I have my "new to me" blackberry Curve with WiFi. I have my tent and air mattress on lay-a-way at Kmart. I was blessed with a very full class for the last of my Virginia based Spiritual Empowerment classes that has allowed to to gain everything I needed (material wise) to leave this state (said with so many meanings that just one).
The hardest part of leaving even has been eased for me. Leaving my 3 month old (ascended master consciousness) grandson behind. Just the other day he showed me in no uncertain terms that he can and will continue to communicate with me.
I was driving home from the store when I all of a sudden seen my grandsons face blink in and out of my field of vision... it reminded me of a radio signal that was trying to come in over another one. The moment I opened my heart to that precious little face, he was able to hold his face infront of mine and gave me the most wonderful message for his parents. Which I did. I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt, that this little man is going to be my greatest teacher yet... on so many levels in so many ways and that we access each other thru the heart energy of love.
This knowing, this understanding to me, means more than any gas money, any material need ever could. With this I Am so ready to move to my lifes next great adventure.
I will keep you posted.
In the deepest gratitude of love,
Lisa
I have my "new to me" blackberry Curve with WiFi. I have my tent and air mattress on lay-a-way at Kmart. I was blessed with a very full class for the last of my Virginia based Spiritual Empowerment classes that has allowed to to gain everything I needed (material wise) to leave this state (said with so many meanings that just one).
The hardest part of leaving even has been eased for me. Leaving my 3 month old (ascended master consciousness) grandson behind. Just the other day he showed me in no uncertain terms that he can and will continue to communicate with me.
I was driving home from the store when I all of a sudden seen my grandsons face blink in and out of my field of vision... it reminded me of a radio signal that was trying to come in over another one. The moment I opened my heart to that precious little face, he was able to hold his face infront of mine and gave me the most wonderful message for his parents. Which I did. I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt, that this little man is going to be my greatest teacher yet... on so many levels in so many ways and that we access each other thru the heart energy of love.
This knowing, this understanding to me, means more than any gas money, any material need ever could. With this I Am so ready to move to my lifes next great adventure.
I will keep you posted.
In the deepest gratitude of love,
Lisa
Thursday, April 22, 2010
7 weeks before my big adventure!
This are progressively moving along! My needs are being taking care of, even if it is still one day at a time.
The universe gave me a "must have" list (altho short) of what I have to take with me (of course, if I choose to, but why would I choose not to lol). I need to bring one Labadorite and one Florite Crystals (got each of them plus a Pink Lumerian Seed Crystal) on ebay for amazingly inexpensive prices. These crystals will become my "road dogs," my friends along the way.
I was asked to get a Blackberry with WiFi ability.. I got the whole Blackberry Curve package for only $100 and the seller threw in a car charger for free. And the beautiful way the Universe has of validating our path as we walk it... I went to my online T-Mobile account to see if I can just share my sons Blackberry package and somehow, T-Mobile already had my phone number listed with a Blackberry phone (of which I didn't receive yet, it was only shipped out a day ago). Everytime I ever logged onto T-Mobile it has my Samsung phone always listed, since it is the phone I got for $10 with my 2 year contract from T-Mobile and now, somehow... they already knew change was in my air!!
On top of that I am getting sign after sign from the world around me that shows me that yes, New Mexico is where I am supposed to be heading.... between stopping behind a SUV called Santa Fe as I went to put my camping gear on Layaway... to license plates echoing the same thing, billboards and business signs confirming my next great adventure... makes my heart feel secure and excited about my next leg of my lifes journey.
So all I need now, is a car charger for my laptop and the actual money to get my bills paid up two months in advance. I am thinking of doing a fundraiser in June.... not quite sure what yet... but have time to figure it out.
Things are really coming together, more effortlessly than I could have ever anticipated!! I so love the universe... spirit.... and each one of you!!
Thanks for walking this path with me.
(((((HUGZ)))))
Lisa
The universe gave me a "must have" list (altho short) of what I have to take with me (of course, if I choose to, but why would I choose not to lol). I need to bring one Labadorite and one Florite Crystals (got each of them plus a Pink Lumerian Seed Crystal) on ebay for amazingly inexpensive prices. These crystals will become my "road dogs," my friends along the way.
I was asked to get a Blackberry with WiFi ability.. I got the whole Blackberry Curve package for only $100 and the seller threw in a car charger for free. And the beautiful way the Universe has of validating our path as we walk it... I went to my online T-Mobile account to see if I can just share my sons Blackberry package and somehow, T-Mobile already had my phone number listed with a Blackberry phone (of which I didn't receive yet, it was only shipped out a day ago). Everytime I ever logged onto T-Mobile it has my Samsung phone always listed, since it is the phone I got for $10 with my 2 year contract from T-Mobile and now, somehow... they already knew change was in my air!!
On top of that I am getting sign after sign from the world around me that shows me that yes, New Mexico is where I am supposed to be heading.... between stopping behind a SUV called Santa Fe as I went to put my camping gear on Layaway... to license plates echoing the same thing, billboards and business signs confirming my next great adventure... makes my heart feel secure and excited about my next leg of my lifes journey.
So all I need now, is a car charger for my laptop and the actual money to get my bills paid up two months in advance. I am thinking of doing a fundraiser in June.... not quite sure what yet... but have time to figure it out.
Things are really coming together, more effortlessly than I could have ever anticipated!! I so love the universe... spirit.... and each one of you!!
Thanks for walking this path with me.
(((((HUGZ)))))
Lisa
Friday, April 16, 2010
Tweakin the present energies
I find it interesting how we as a human species get really caught up in what "society" says we should do and should not do... and live by those standards, even if it is hurting us on so many levels. We tend to ignore that pain and do what good little (fear-filled) humans are supposed to do.
I will give you my current example.
When "The Wonder of You" closed and I decided to open (which was more of a re-naming) The Soul Center the one thing I carried over was the phone line and the internet service. The reason being is that The Wonder of You was opened for close to 2 years and a lot of previous clients have that phone number, so I wanted to take advantage of that. It didn't matter that the take over came with a $450 dollar debt and included a $150 extra fee for moving the line down the street. I opened my wallet to the now $700 advantage of having the phone number follow me.
As I got situated in my new space... business picked up. I decided to make payment arrangements with Cox (the phone / interent folks) to start paying that debt off. Since my monthly bill was adding $150 to that debt every month. The moment I made payment arrangements... my business died. No bookings, no nothing. The checks started bouncing to Cox.
I called and explained what has been happening... and they were (are) really open to working with me.... understanding the fragelness of being in business today.
I had paid down my debt enough, they let me accumulate more. 2 months later, my bill was at $801 and they "softly" (.. their words lol) turned off my phone and internet. My business came back even stronger!! I felt secure in making yet another payment arrangement.
My business died again. Geez!!
My bank account bounced again... what is crazy, is their payment processing people try and put the ACH draft in every other day!! If the money is not there on Monday, what makes you think it will be there on Wednesday.. and if it is not there on Wednesday... what makes Friday so different?? Why not just call me and find out. No... $120 in bounce fee's... I gave up.
That inner voice kept telling me to let it go... cut the ties that bind me to that "old communication" system... but my mind kept saying.... no. I need the old phone number, I need the internet... well now, my bank account has become in a position that says, too bad so sad lol
I let go of the need to have Cox in my life.
My business came swarming back three fold.
The moral of the story... we can carry the weight of our old debts, our old communication, our old ways of doing things until we break our backs... or simply let it go and be willing to let the new come rushing towards you.
I local business in the building I am in is allowing me to share her internet service. I already had my business line transferred to my cell phone anyway... now I am just using my cell as my contact. I unloaded that debt back to the universe... and the universe is bringing to me what has always been needed (but blocked by my own mental agenda).
I also got my hands on a Blackberry Curve 8310 with WiFi and GPS for only $100. I am trading one old commincation energy for one new one. Yay!!!
I love this game called life... it works well if you allow yourself to get OUT OF YOUR MIND!!
I cannot wait to see what today brings!!
Until tomorrow.....
I will give you my current example.
When "The Wonder of You" closed and I decided to open (which was more of a re-naming) The Soul Center the one thing I carried over was the phone line and the internet service. The reason being is that The Wonder of You was opened for close to 2 years and a lot of previous clients have that phone number, so I wanted to take advantage of that. It didn't matter that the take over came with a $450 dollar debt and included a $150 extra fee for moving the line down the street. I opened my wallet to the now $700 advantage of having the phone number follow me.
As I got situated in my new space... business picked up. I decided to make payment arrangements with Cox (the phone / interent folks) to start paying that debt off. Since my monthly bill was adding $150 to that debt every month. The moment I made payment arrangements... my business died. No bookings, no nothing. The checks started bouncing to Cox.
I called and explained what has been happening... and they were (are) really open to working with me.... understanding the fragelness of being in business today.
I had paid down my debt enough, they let me accumulate more. 2 months later, my bill was at $801 and they "softly" (.. their words lol) turned off my phone and internet. My business came back even stronger!! I felt secure in making yet another payment arrangement.
My business died again. Geez!!
My bank account bounced again... what is crazy, is their payment processing people try and put the ACH draft in every other day!! If the money is not there on Monday, what makes you think it will be there on Wednesday.. and if it is not there on Wednesday... what makes Friday so different?? Why not just call me and find out. No... $120 in bounce fee's... I gave up.
That inner voice kept telling me to let it go... cut the ties that bind me to that "old communication" system... but my mind kept saying.... no. I need the old phone number, I need the internet... well now, my bank account has become in a position that says, too bad so sad lol
I let go of the need to have Cox in my life.
My business came swarming back three fold.
The moral of the story... we can carry the weight of our old debts, our old communication, our old ways of doing things until we break our backs... or simply let it go and be willing to let the new come rushing towards you.
I local business in the building I am in is allowing me to share her internet service. I already had my business line transferred to my cell phone anyway... now I am just using my cell as my contact. I unloaded that debt back to the universe... and the universe is bringing to me what has always been needed (but blocked by my own mental agenda).
I also got my hands on a Blackberry Curve 8310 with WiFi and GPS for only $100. I am trading one old commincation energy for one new one. Yay!!!
I love this game called life... it works well if you allow yourself to get OUT OF YOUR MIND!!
I cannot wait to see what today brings!!
Until tomorrow.....
Thursday, April 15, 2010
2 Months Before the 2000 Mile "Ride-About"
Hello everyone (anyone?),
So here I am, 2 months before the biggest shift of my life and wondering how it is all going to come together and play out. If you are not already familiar with who I am, please get to know me at www.mysoulcenter.com. That is a website I have been growing and sharing upon since March 2003. This journal is not about where I came from... but where I am going to, why and how.
That is the funny part, the "how?" How does a single gal who just had a business collapse and her financial life "appear" to always be in the arrears, set out on a journey that will take her 2000 miles away from her beloved family without the "apparent" resources to do so.
Trust.
Phew.
I have two months to manifest some needed things (none of which I have today):
Where am I now? My bank account is about $400 overdrawn... so I have a lot of manifesting to do in 2 months! lol Does it scare me? Not even close. I have played in the universal ether's of co-creation for 10 years now. I trust I will have enough of what I need to at least allow me to get out the door of my home and onto the next exciting phase of my life.
It is the how.... that I will be documenting, all the way to New Mexico. This is my real life Ride-About (as opposed to the Australian Walkabout).
I asked for, and received within a day... an Atlas. Yay (thank you again Nicole). I now have a way to plot my course towards New Mexico. Of course, one cannot ask the universe for support and not be open to what the universe needs in return. (smile)
I will be stopping at as many caves along the way (actually plotting my course according to the caves along the way) and do some very special energy work (prayers) and to power it all up with crystalline energy. What that means is, I will be sealing energy work within the crystal(s) selected for each cave and bury the crystal(s) within the earth of the cave.
Anyway... this is the beginning of my journal.
With so much love and excitement thru it all!
(((((HUGZ))))))
Lisa
So here I am, 2 months before the biggest shift of my life and wondering how it is all going to come together and play out. If you are not already familiar with who I am, please get to know me at www.mysoulcenter.com. That is a website I have been growing and sharing upon since March 2003. This journal is not about where I came from... but where I am going to, why and how.
That is the funny part, the "how?" How does a single gal who just had a business collapse and her financial life "appear" to always be in the arrears, set out on a journey that will take her 2000 miles away from her beloved family without the "apparent" resources to do so.
Trust.
Phew.
I have two months to manifest some needed things (none of which I have today):
- Gas money
- Camping / Hotel (on rainy nights) money
- A Tent
- An air mattress with a car kit
- A new cell phone with a GPS and WiFi ability (looking at the blackberry Curve 8900 on ebay for $190)
- Food Money
- The ability to make my car payment, insurance payment and phone payment 2 months in advance.
- Rose and Clear quartz crystals to leave at each cave I visit along the way
Where am I now? My bank account is about $400 overdrawn... so I have a lot of manifesting to do in 2 months! lol Does it scare me? Not even close. I have played in the universal ether's of co-creation for 10 years now. I trust I will have enough of what I need to at least allow me to get out the door of my home and onto the next exciting phase of my life.
It is the how.... that I will be documenting, all the way to New Mexico. This is my real life Ride-About (as opposed to the Australian Walkabout).
I asked for, and received within a day... an Atlas. Yay (thank you again Nicole). I now have a way to plot my course towards New Mexico. Of course, one cannot ask the universe for support and not be open to what the universe needs in return. (smile)
I will be stopping at as many caves along the way (actually plotting my course according to the caves along the way) and do some very special energy work (prayers) and to power it all up with crystalline energy. What that means is, I will be sealing energy work within the crystal(s) selected for each cave and bury the crystal(s) within the earth of the cave.
Anyway... this is the beginning of my journal.
With so much love and excitement thru it all!
(((((HUGZ))))))
Lisa
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